I overheard my mom talking about the new school situation. I got mad of course and started grumbling about things. she went into my room and and I wouldn't say anything to her. I told her to sit down on the edge of my bed because I know her back has been hurting (which means it would be better if she sat by the wall). she asked me if I hated her. I didn't answer cause I really didn't know what I should say. if I said no, I wouldn't be completely telling the truth. I looked at her with a blank face then turned away. she left and I didn't say goodnight. I don't think I have any repsect for her. she hasn't done anything with her life that would possibly give me a reason to respect her or even look up to her. especially not her marriage with my father since that ended and left me confused. ah fuck. I don't think I've ever really looked up to my mom. she's fucked up her life. she doesn't have a good job. she's not living in such a great house, and she met some stupid guy, who I secretly have hated for the past 7 years. I need a hero. that would be a first. this was pretty long for being an entry from my phone. my eyes hurt. they're dry....heh. I think my mother is upset. her voice weakend. whatever night

WOW! I haven't been on this account in a while eh? only because of my new SM account diamond lights! its 12:32am as I'm typing this on my little phones keyboard. I just wanted to say...I think it was Interblag's journal I just read... where I though "woah, I know exactly what you mean. I dislike my friends even though I call them friends. (sorry if I got your username wrong btw) anyways I just felt like signing on this account. good night and hopefully ill doze off while thinking about stupid things. !!! Your Song by Four Year Strong.