Yeah that's based off X Japan's lyrics. Did I ever bother mentioning how much I love music? Art in general really, I love creation. Which is sad. Since originality has left us for another nebula. BUT people still amaze us with their talent... The world can be so beautiful when you're not looking. And so ugly the moment you decide to care. What did I say about sad...? Life itself is rather weirded out. But so many people forget one important thing when asking "WHAT IS THE PURPOSE/POINT/MEANING OF LIFE???" They forget that we're here. I mean the fact that they're alive and that they can actually ask something rather than being an insignificant blob floating in space. Not that humans are any more important or less insignificant, tee hee... To some people oblivion would seem a blessing. But they've never been there, so really suicide is even more pointless than their illfated existence isn't it?? I wish I thought all this a few years back. It would have probably helped with the mini-depression. BUT NOOOOOOOOOO Life just had to be a bitch and make me find out the hard way that I'm here and that's actually worth something. Well, since we've personified Life anyway, at this point She might say, "well you DID ask..." HAH. Is anyone reading this? Does it make sense? Is it beyond you or behind you, what I'm talking about? or do you have no idea... just like me... in a sense. No matter how high we climb, we are just ants on a molehill. And eventually the hill ends. (What do you do when you're on the top??) Which is actually rather encouraging. I mean, ants DO something don't they? Don't mind my rambling- after all I'm writing this on the basis that no one cares SOOOOO.... yay! Ican say WHATEVER I want. On the say whatever point, may i add I love j-rockers? They're SOOOO cute! but then again, C-rockers are surprisingly cute-er. HMMMMM.. You know with the whole AZN music streak, you mgiht be surprised to hear my fave band are actually a bunch of italian goth/opera-metal people. YES it's LACUNZAAAAAAA!! (aka Lacuna Coil to normal people). oh DANg i got sidetracked. yes, we forget when asking "what is the purpose of life?" that we are alive. and believe it or NOT, that counts for soemthing, unless if it's not just a miracle of nature that our world is able to manage itself like this. I mean seriously, SCIENTIFICALLY any of us can just cease functioning at any given time. yet somehow lfie as we know it goes on. Which led me to Christianity. HELLO GOD I KNOW YOU'RE THERE!!!!!! DANG i got sidetracked AGAIN! ~annoyed~ yes. what i meant to say from the start of this long ramble is that .. oh i dunno. Hmm. No matter how I got here and no matter why I am here, I'm here and and Iwill do my best to deserve what I've got. Even if Ireally don't deserve anytihng, that's ok, what else can i do, short of wasting this aweful/awful opportunity at existence? You know, you people should all just go to your local library and read a manga series called Battle angel Alita. It's got some wonderful philosophical arguments.