there's one guy who makes my heart melt. and i've never even spoken to him. and he's going to my bessie's party on saturday! my bessie being a guy and therefore no chance of him getting with the heart melter (: omggggg life is fantabulous. person a: stop getting so wrapped up in your own lives and look out for your friends. not your boyfriend. there's so many of us right now that need you and you haven't even noticed. person b: i love you. you're the best best-friend i think i've ever known. happy birthday and please don't leave for uni. what am i gonna do without you?! song of today: love lockdown - kanye west. x

i'm doing that thing where i think too much again. about whether or not i should go out with this guy. he's really lovely. but i don't know if it would work. and i know i should try it anyway. but if it doesn't work then the friendship would be totally screwed. on a brighter note i got a modelling job the other day. which is totally mental. 'cos i don't even see myself as attractive. haha how emo does that sound. boo frickin' hoo. nah babes i love my life. even school's ok. though the work is getting pretty huge. song of today: sex on fire - kings of leon.

i love school. i'm a geek. and i love it. me and my mates had a free lesson today so we went for coffee and fruit pastilles and then back to school. it was really nice, dead relaxed. but i still don't know what to do about the luuurve situation. the third guy has gone to his ex girlfriends party tonight. and he's still in love with her. godddd. i'm thinking too much. song of today: she left me - go:audio.

i started 6th form this week. and weirdly enough i'm really enjoying it. i love the lessons even though at times they can get pretty tough. and i'm really looking forward to working hard. on the luuurve front all is confusing. there's 3 guys i like. the first asked me on a date and then i found out he had a girlfriend. the second acted like a fool so i stopped talking to him, and he's now declaring undying love for me. the third i really like but is still madly in love with his ex girlfriend. i'm going to meet up with the second soon and sort stuff out. not that i know what that means. maybe i still like him. maybe it could work. maybe i like the third guy too much for that to happen. really who knows. song of today: paper planes - M.I.A.