i just got of the phone to my bestest friend in the world (: i love that chicka. she told me i should ignore the guy from the last journal. i agree with her. let him stew (y) i'm gunna invite her round. my bessie lol. she's such a gem. i swear she's the only one i can count on totally. her and my dad. i love my dad. as you can tell i'm in a totally lovey mood lol, i take everyone for granted so it's just hit me how much they mean to me. love you guys (L) i wouldn't be who i am without you. song of the day: july - natty.

i need to scream. here's the deal.. i really like this guy, and he really likes me. he promised to phone me every night whilst he was away so that i knew everything was ok and so we didn't miss each other so much. 5 days go by and i hear nothing. i text him asking what's going on, and whether he still wants 'us' or not. his response: "i'd already gone over on my phone bill." seriously. i was worried sick. i thought something awful had happened because he'd gone on a mountain biking trek and it was really dangerous. i didn't think he loved me when he told me he did. something about it didn't sound geniune. maybe i'm over reacting. but i've never felt like this before. song of today: 5 years time - noah and the whale.