Veela are mythical creatures, that are thought to have originated in Bulgaria and spread across Europe. They are like humans, but are very fast, very beautiful, their eyes become darker if they feel threatened, angry, possessive or aroused, can smell aroma and emotions, can view things at a long distance, can listen to someone far away becuase they are tuned in to their voice, have sensitive taste buds, live long lives and are prone to sensitive touch (especially by their mate). The most important thing to a Veela is their mate, which in human terms is their soul mate: a person they have a connection or bond with. A Veela usually finds their mate at a young age, and during the year that something changed between their mate is when their Veela blood awakens, or when they start becoming Veela-like. A Veela will do anything to ensure their mate is happy, healthy and protected. When their mate is ill or injured, they become far more protective than normal and only let family members and females close. If their mate is threatened, Veela are known to be irrational or angry and will do anything to keep their mate safe. If a Veela's mate is happy, then the Veela itself is happy. If their mate dies, the Veela dies along with it's mate out of lonliness, and they die peacefully in sleep together because their souls are tied. In my lingo, a Veela is a person that is obsessed with finding a girlfriend/boyfriend or constantly on the lookout for someone hot because they are afraid they will die of loneliness. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I still felt left out today. I told Jess about it this morning at her spot (in front of the Student Center) about how Lilian has a crush on Noel. She asked how Noel felt about this, and I said he just tells Lilian to bother me (not exactly in those words, but you get the point). Today they talked even more about MS and IM during lunch, whilst I was copying Sam's (Samantha Uchida, a really smart girl) biology notes. Our usual hang out is under the tree between H and I building. After lunch, Lilan was in G building, so she was close to her next class. Noel had to go to the locker rooms, and I had to go to M building for math, so we walked together. He told me "Don't worry about the math test. It's easy." I shrugged and we went out seperate ways. I wonder if he knows how I was feeling. I really, really suck at hiding my feelings. Really. Sometimes I don't know my own facial expression. I can't tell if what I'm feeling is on my face (you know what I mean). I do it unconciously. It's like blinking your eye. Anyways, nothing special today really. I thought that in High School, the acedemics would be hard, but it actually isn't. It's easy if you keep up with the work. Got to go (aka G2G), homework (aka hw). ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Today wasn't so bad. I was at least sort of involved, if being stuck in the middle of their poking each other with weeds (so un-highschool like) counts. I think my suspicions of Lilan are still true. Of course, they wouldn't change overnight, seeing as they spend afternoons hanging out together online on the stupid game MapleStory (aka MS). Lilian actually said in front of him, sort of to him, that Noel was nice when he wasn't trying to be mean, and he was a good friend beucase he saved her ass from some magical creature on MS while she blow dried her hair. The results of my audition for Hawaii Youth Syphony (aka HYS) came in today. I was put in the String Orchestra Ensemble (aka SOE), the same group I was in last year with the same sucky old teacher Ms.Nguyen (pronounced Mrs. Win). I didn't practice a lot for the auditions (the night before), so I was put in the lower group. But if I practiced I know I would be put in one of the higher groups. I don't want to do HYS this year because I just started High School, and I don't want to go through the same stress, in the same class, with the same stupid old bat of a teacher! If I was put in a higher group, I would, but if I'm doing the same thing, forget it! It's not worth my time. Mom has lectured me about preparing for auditions and doing this, and doing that, and blah, blah, blah. I have to go, she's yelling at me to do something else now. Shut the fuck up (aka STFU) lady! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It feels like I don't have real friends. Lilian and Noel, my only friends (all the others ditched for more interesting people), talk about IM and MapleStory, stuff I don't do. And I suck at converstation: I was never good with words. The only reason I hang out with them is because there's no one else. In a group of odd numbered people, someone will be left out, and it's usually me. And I'm starting to get the feeling Lilan likes Noel. She's always off in her own world when I'm with her, and when she talks it's about Noel. 'He's nice, but he doesn't like to show it' 'he probably would save me if I was dying' 'he always does what I ask.' And she loves to poke and punch him playfully. She always needs his attention. I don't like Noel or anything, but it makes me feel even more left out. If they get together, I'll be a third wheel. I don't want to be a third wheel. I feel like such a loser. So to get more involved I signed up to be on the trivia committee for homecoming. No one's joined it, but I'm hoping it'll be fun, and that I'll meet new people. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~