do u ever wonder what your special someone is thinking right this second?? even if you've never met them...yet. ladies, what could ur future husband be at this time? men, have u ever wondered what your future wives are planning for this weekend? i have this fear inside of me that i will never find "the one." that i'll make the biggest mistake of my life and end up with the wrong person. i have faith in myself and i have faith in you too. don't worry...that special someone is out there somewhere...hope you find them

yea okay..this is my fourth entry today. total loser! anyways....is there anybody out there who is terrified of their future?? we all have plans for how we want our life to turn out, but what if it doesn't? what if we end up going in the complete opposite direction?? i almost don't want to grow up. i wish that i could stay a little kid (i'm actually 18) and live in just an innocent world where my mind is always in a state of peace.I supose that all i want for myself in life is to be free. doesn't anyone?

have any of u heard of Enrque Iglesias's new song "Do You Know? (The Ping Pong Song)" ...its amazing. i was never really a fan of his because his mole always turned me off :) (sorry enrique!) Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away? Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya? Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed? If birds flying south is a sign of changes At least you can predict this every year Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly I can’t get it to speak Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me Look in your eyes to see something about me I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give. damn it! these lyrics match my situation perfectly! he doesn't even know me...i wish he did. ah well. his loss

do i love him? nah....could i ever love him? its very possible...never give up on what's in your heart ladies!i know we have all these emotions that confuse the shit out of us...but the answer is inside of u...u just have to find it

there is the one guy who i don't get...we've talked for a long time and no matter how much i tell myself that it's never going to be, i always listen to a song that fills my mind with more hope (this is not a good thing at all). i kno he doesn't want me now but what about 5 years from now?? I know i'll be a completely different person...maybe something he wants. i know it's incredibly stupid to change yourself into something your not for some stupid guy...but human nature does not allow me to hold back. in my mind, i know we are not right for each other...in my heart, i know we are PERFECT for each other. this is some pretty shitty situation i am in huh? he is the only guy i can talk to for hours and hours and keep going...but i can't have him. i never knew what his true feelings were over the 8 months we have chatted - or over the 13 years we've known each other, but never really KNEW one another (if you know what i mean). We can have conversations that cause me to despise him for judging me...but the next day, i still feel the same way i did the first time we really spoke. is that love? i've never had that kind of love before, so i wouldn't know. will i ever know? I HAVE NO IDEA