i need to find a song that means....i can't stop thinking about you but at the same time, i hate ur fuckin guts for treating me this way... that would be great

why r boys soooo confusing? ok...so i get to work and my crush hardly takes any action. is he intimidated by me or something cuz i've been told that i can look stand-offish when i'm in a serious mode. But i'm really not mad at all..that's just the expression on my face. Damn it...i just want him to like me. i"m pretty sure he thinks i'm attractive cuz of what happened last friday. BUt that shit doesn't matter! Something interesting happened the other day. HIs girlfriend came in to talk to him about something...but i didn't hear what they were saying. And i just felt that they were talking about something serious...like they were near of the edge of breaking up or something. (total random observation) And today...he didn't seem himself. Like he was down about something, which could be another reason why he wasn't really noticing me (if he's even interested). i don't know. I hate this part of the process...starting the damn relationship; if there is going to be one. well this is to all u boys out there.....WHY R U SOOOO DAMN CONFUSING?? jk that's what makes u guys so adorable :) You Do you remember me like I remember you Do you spend your life going back in your mind to the time Coz I I walk the streets alone I hear people my own and everyone can see that I real fair and I'm going for her thinking about you was somebody else Somebody wants you Somebody needs you Somebody dreams about you every single night Somebody can't breathe without you it's lonely Somebody holds I won't think you will see That somebody's me That somebody's me How How did we go wrong It was so good and now it's gone Then I pray at night that our passing will cross what we had is a lost Coz you're always you're here in my lost Somebody wants you Somebody needs you Somebody dreams about you every single night Somebody can't breathe without you it's lonely Somebody holds at someday you will see That somebody's me oh yeah You'll always be in my life Even if I'm not in your life It's in my memory Now when you remember me And before you set me free Oh listen please Somebody wants you Somebody needs you Somebody dreams about you every single night Somebody can't breathe without you it's lonely Somebody holds that someday you will see That somebody's me (yeaaheeyeeh) Somebody's me Somebody's me Somebody's me

Today my family is coming over to celebrate me and my cousin's graduation from high school. woo hoo! Should be a good day...great food and just chilling around like bums haha. Okay so the weekend was a good success! I told my mom that i wanted to get food from work because i knew a certain someone would be working. So i slipped on an adorable casual tang top and some shorts and headed over to the carryout counter. Of course, i stood there for a long time on purpose to make sure that he would see me while working. And boo yea!!!! he glanced over and walked passed me twice. And it was the type of passing where he didn't really need to, but he did anyway to do some checking out. Now i am supposed to work with him in the next couple days so we'll just have to see if my plan did really work. I know! I'm a dork but i like to take things slow. i believe that its better to take the longer road to a relationship by finding someone who is really worth it. I want to make sure that he likes me for me and not just by appearances or first impressions. Although those do help. Well, i'm off...i just received a couple of sweet quote books for graduation and i'll write a couple down later. I'm so nerdy but i love reading inspiring words of wisdom and picking one that relates to my life story and a current life crisis. Is there anyone out there who doesn't think i'm totally crazy??