i backed my car into a cop car the other day well he just drove off, sometimes life's okay. i ran my mouth off a bit too much, oh what did I say? well you just laughed it off, it was all okay... don't you worry. i'm back. and i'm having the time of my life. i decided to take a break from the world last week when i was in florida.. totally worth it. i turned my phone off, didn't take the laptop, and had the greatest, most relaxing time. anyway, i've been back for 2 days now. he says he misses me. and wants to see me. i'm gonna make him wait. make him beg. it's nice to have control. i sound like a freak. whatever. tell me you don't want control. you don't want someone to beg for you. i've been thinking... some people are quiet whores. but it takes one to know one.

Other people turn around and laugh at you if you said that these are the best days of our lives... yeaaaaahhh. i've never felt more detached from someone than i do now. but then there's A out of nowhere. we keep asking ourselves if we're really strong enough. strong enough to leave. or strong enough to stay. where we are. not changing. make time stand still. there's no such thing as eternity. and are we brave enough to face ourselves? stand in the mirror and look ourselves in the eye? would you do it? can you do it without crying? i don't wanna go away. but i want change. just not this kind of change. everyone's so boring. and pessimistic. contemptuous. this city is ridiculous. we're all sheep.