Things that I'm afraid of: Being alone, without anyone around Being alone, in a crowded place People talking about me People thinking bad things about me snakes Mr. Delaup initiating conversation when i'm not in person making my mom/dad angry not being good enough not being smart enough not being pretty enough being afraid losing myself finding myself crashing my car (so far so good...) being tied down (in a relationship) not being loved not being liked being really angry and that's all I can think of right now.

So yeah, finally broke up with him. Almost two weeks ago now. And of course I have jealous ex-girlfriend syndrom. He asked her to prom, and it was adorable, and he seems so happy, and all of his problems seem to be fixed. It makes me feel like the virus that fucked up his life. Ironic, really, that I started getting sick the day after I started feeling that way. I have a date to prom, and he's adorable, and I really like him, but its still hard to see him so happy when I'm still not. I'm finally realizing that breaking up with him, changing my life like that, isn't going to solve all my problems.