So the Lolly told me that she was going to go to akon with Andrea on friday. I must admit it upset me alot, but I sorta overreacted by crying. I shouldn't have done that. It was sorta stupid. The only thing is though that she knows I dislike Andrea but she still asked me. This goes to show how much she understands me. I wonder if anyone will miss me at akon.

It really sucks when basically most of your friends hang out with and love the person you hate most. It really really sucks when the person you hate the most is andrea. It really really really sucks when they value her friendship more than yours. After awhile it starts to become a source of stress. And you know what stress does? It makes you gain weight and wrinkles. Oh and I've decided my weight goal. I want to loose like 20-25 pounds. Not like andrea who wants to be under 100 pounds. Just put me somewhere around 125 and I'll be happy. So here it is once I am under this number I will cross it out. -150 -145 -140 -135 -130 Tuesday May 29th I weigh 147 pounds.

La Da Da Da Da The smell of your skin lingers on me now You're probably on your flight back to your home town I need some shelter of my own protection baby To be with myself instead of calamity Peace, Serenity I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But Ive got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry The path that I'm walking I must go alone I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Like the little school mate in the school yard We'll play jacks and uno cards Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine Yes you can hold my hand if you want to Cause I want to hold yours too Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds But its time for me to go home Its getting late, dark outside I need to be with myself instead of calamity Peace, Serenity I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry La Da Da Da Da Da I love this song mango. Its the soft one by Fergie. Its just sooo pretty. I know I'm up at 2:30 but its hard to sleep tommrow is the last day and then my life as I know it is over. I have to move to the next stage and I don't know if I'm ready. I'm scared to go up to the highschool. That means more responsibilities more work. Mango this means that I'm actually going to be responsible for what I do because this will all be going torwards my future. ....my future.... Colleges will look at my highschool record. It actually counts. I'm scared and unprepaired. Its been so long since I took up responsibility. Ugh this summer is going to be so weird.

We are all set to go Mango!