So I'm going to get to go to Cancun, Mexico. I'm excited and I feel like partying. I wanna dance and just be extreamly happy. Thats a good feeling from earlier. How was I suppose to know an aww means like I like you or something like that. Thats stupid. Well I know he won't ask me out now thanks to amada's awsome explanations. DUDE SHE IS COMING OVER TOMMORROW! I'm like way excited! Anddd she is spending the night!! its gonna be awsome. I've been watching alot of bleach and I decided I love it. Its like way awsome. And I've fallen down to my fangirldom of Gaara.

Well it is over. It was a good three days and I can not wait for next year. It shall be awesome. Lolly and I have decided that we shall cosplay next year! I just sorta need to figure out who I'm going to cosplay as. I had alot of fun and I'm glad I went. I have slowly started turning into a fangirl though. Its actually pretty amusing. I have so much Gaara stuff now. I think I can last for a while. So I've been watching this anime Bleach on Crunchyroll.com and I like it alot. It didn't seem like it would be intresting at first but I like it now that I've seen a few episodes. This summer I turn 14 which means for me I can start working legally. Yay! Well yayish cause I don't know if I really want to work I just need money and unfortunatly money doesn't grow on trees. I am tired it is almost 2 and I think I'm going to go to sleep soon. Good night.

I'm sorry that I haven't updated in forever. I'm sorry that I've been neglecting my best friends. I'm sorry that Lolly's akon hasn't been as fun as it probably would have been with andrea. I'm sorry I started crying yesterday. My excuse? Overwhelmed. I'm sorry you wouldn't say bye because you didn't want to see me cry. I'm sorry I freaked out and worried myself sick even though everyone said you were fine. I'm sorry I'm not more patient of you making out with random people. I'm sorry I'm composing this list instead of talking about all the fun I had. So two days of con down. One more to go. This year has been pretty good con. I didn't get to go to the concerts and I didn't get to see cosplay contest but Andrea and I haven't had the need to fight yet. I've seen Becky, Marissa, Stalker-Boy, Pop-Corn guy, Deon, Spencer, Chris, Jordan, Robert, Jimmy-Jim-Jimbo-San, and all these other people. I met new people like Kitsune Boy/Ericka, K-man/Michael, Tall Guy/Robert, Patrick/That one guy, Tom, Sharel, Deeana, and people whose names I do not know but they are rad. Its really cool. Lolly is becoming really upset about Jimmy but I can't blame her. Marissa is starting to get on her nerves because she was with him. Its purely jealousy so I'm not sure how to respond. She has even admitted that she can be nice so I don't know what to do. Michael and Nick fought up in the little sky thingy ma bobbers. It was funny. Speaking of Michael these five Ninjas came up and attacked him and he needed like stitches. He held them off for awhile but, you know ninjas, they cheated, and knocked him up side the head. Haha no thats not what happened. His cousin was messing around and some thingy fell on Michael's head. It hurt him and he was bleeding, apparently alot, he had to go home and they had to use this glue like stuff to put it back together. I was worried. I really don't want anything bad to happen to him. Apparently [From Nick] he layed down on the floor so he wouldn't get blood on his Tenchi Muyo shirt. Thats sounds like him. I don't know I've called him a couple times and he says he is okay so.....I sorta belive him. I just worry cause I don't know anymore. Lolly and I have decided as a get-well-present that we are going to get him a suprise. Ha :) We are getting this guy to do a commission. Hint: It has Washu, Neko, and a Nurse outfit. Lolly said it was a good idea so I gots to trust her. :) Mango I need to talk to you later about the one boy. Its sorta becoming slightly overwhelming. :(

So the Lolly told me that she was going to go to akon with Andrea on friday. I must admit it upset me alot, but I sorta overreacted by crying. I shouldn't have done that. It was sorta stupid. The only thing is though that she knows I dislike Andrea but she still asked me. This goes to show how much she understands me. I wonder if anyone will miss me at akon.

It really sucks when basically most of your friends hang out with and love the person you hate most. It really really sucks when the person you hate the most is andrea. It really really really sucks when they value her friendship more than yours. After awhile it starts to become a source of stress. And you know what stress does? It makes you gain weight and wrinkles. Oh and I've decided my weight goal. I want to loose like 20-25 pounds. Not like andrea who wants to be under 100 pounds. Just put me somewhere around 125 and I'll be happy. So here it is once I am under this number I will cross it out. -150 -145 -140 -135 -130 Tuesday May 29th I weigh 147 pounds.

La Da Da Da Da The smell of your skin lingers on me now You're probably on your flight back to your home town I need some shelter of my own protection baby To be with myself instead of calamity Peace, Serenity I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But Ive got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry The path that I'm walking I must go alone I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Like the little school mate in the school yard We'll play jacks and uno cards Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine Yes you can hold my hand if you want to Cause I want to hold yours too Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds But its time for me to go home Its getting late, dark outside I need to be with myself instead of calamity Peace, Serenity I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry La Da Da Da Da Da I love this song mango. Its the soft one by Fergie. Its just sooo pretty. I know I'm up at 2:30 but its hard to sleep tommrow is the last day and then my life as I know it is over. I have to move to the next stage and I don't know if I'm ready. I'm scared to go up to the highschool. That means more responsibilities more work. Mango this means that I'm actually going to be responsible for what I do because this will all be going torwards my future. ....my future.... Colleges will look at my highschool record. It actually counts. I'm scared and unprepaired. Its been so long since I took up responsibility. Ugh this summer is going to be so weird.

We are all set to go Mango!