I felt a need to write to about him. Figure this is the place to do it since i've started. Me and him met at my part time job. He was a warehouse boy while i was nothing more than an average cashier that they hired. I beat my probation and have kept for permanent part time. the boy is now off of night crew and working on days with me. I knew he exisited but never really knew anything about him. One day while he was on an carry out i was walking out for a cig. (We both use to be smokers but decided to stop) he was walking in and asked if he could have a hug. I smiled and say sure. I love hugs. Very huggable person :) He smiled (later found out that he thought that that was a stupid move but i thought it was cute)Another day towards the end of the shift and we were walking out of the store he asked me out. To see if i would like to go to dinner with him. I say we shall see. Due to me never having the time to do anything. That night i had my older brothers car and i drove him home. He was happy about that when i dropped him off to the house he smiled and asked me for my number. I gave him my number and was excited to drive him. I finnally had someone who was interested in me and wasn't from games. From then we went on the date. On the date i figured out that he was not educated due to reason who could not tell me at the time. I was conflicted. My standards use to be atleast graduate from high school. he told me he didn't go to high school and lived in a van for 3 months. But i liked him. I enjoyed his company and enjoyed his personality. i decided that we should still see each other because those things did no matter to me at the time. He was my first for everything. We did everything together and my friends would say that i would spend all most everyday with him. We spent christmas together, chinese new year, easter.. Lets fast forward to 11 months later. One night finishing off the game with my best friend i decided to text him telling him that i wanted to talk and it would be nice that he called me before i slept. He said he was busy with a video game but he has his headset if iwa nted to try calling that. But i knew whenever he is playing a video game and he does something else he is very distracted and it's like he does not want to talk so i said no its fine.. Then he goes off and said okay then good night. I mean i can not be the only girl that says when i say its fine its not really fine and im screaming for attention.. Then it proceeds to us talking and me bringing up the fact that i would like the finer thigns in life and would enjoy to have a good living that involves him getting that cop job or something he likes. But he pushed me away.. He would not even consider an education even if his factory planned failed. So i was convinced from all my friends that i could do so much better for myself. I did. I went over and say im sorry. I can be someone who can't take advantage of the education. It was my kick for him to wake up from reality. I guess it did not work. After we broke up i drove right away to my best friends. I was so prepared to break down but i did not want to in front of him. i know he wouldn't have minded but he also wouldn't know what to do. he decided to drive me to work and seek advice from my wise manager. i eventually broke down in front of her. She knew it was bad. And all my co workers knew something from wrong. Doug certainly was prepared to cheer me up. Few days later I've been regretting it like none other. He tells about this girl that said she was interested in him 2 weeks before we broke up. Afterwards that week that we broke up he decided to hang out and be with her and kisses her i later found out. And we have decided to be one again. then tells me doesn't feel the same way anymore. And once again back in the beginning.. Remember there are 7 billion people in the world. Don't let one ruin your day..

well its 2012! Let's recap on 2011 :) I must say its been an amazing year. I've met and done so many things that I don't even know where to begin! Recap of 2011: Got accepted to UFT And graduated from High School Learned to kind of slow down :P Got my car