So much as happened since November of last year. I signed with a new agent, began serious training, started serious auditions, had family and friends visit from Ohio, turned 21, quit the retail job that I hated, redecorated my apartment, found a new male roommate, and had more experiences as an independent adult. I've gained confidence in my abilities and have also changed some of my goals. As stupid as it might sound to somebody else, my main focus right now is fixing my skin and teeth and hair right now so that "the people" take me more seriously... I also need some new wardrobe items and another good bra. It's like I have tastes of confidence and poise, being the woman I visualize being naturally at all times... but I'm still working on living to my potential. And I'm okay with that. Of course I want the guy, the job, the money, and the goods. But I feel like who I am on the inside needs to be that much more confident and self-assured for that to ever happen. And I know that it has come a long way and that it's getting there through what I'm doing now- my training, counseling, prayer, and practice.