I've come to terms. With the facts. It's just life.

Dear Wonderful People Who Make Me Question if Life is Worth Living, Thanks for making my day suck. Your welcome, me

Tonight was amazing. Amazing amazing amazing. Regardless of the many stupid things done by me. I make bad decisions for my life but they're still fun. went to high school rivalry football game saw tons tons tons of amazing people there had an amazing time lost my voice screaming and my HS kicked some severe ass :] which was amazing. ran around after the game with my friends and an amazing guy :] until we got kicked out by some security guy for various behavior issues torwards the other teams ppl aha woops partied it up in the parking lot went to a coffee place played dare with my buddy ended up chugging tobasco sauce (don't do that ever) then hung around old town with some more cool ppl now I'm back Can't talk, Can't think, But feel amazing yes. good night. very much. forgot about things I needed to forget about.

Don't feel good, don't feel anything. Don't care about anything Wish I did

I hate when I can't stand up for myself and can't find the right things to say. Today pretty much was not a good day. My parents totally flipped on me. Telling me how my friends are so much better then me. Other things. It didn't feel good at all. So I left. On my bike. Went to the store and then this party at the lake. Where I saw people I didnt' expect to be there. Including the guy I probably should be liking, but don't. It was awkward, cause I was mid-breakdown about my parents. I left pretty fast. Hung out at friends. Then I had to come home. To attempt homework way beyond me To avoid conversation with the parents I had nothing to do. They've banned my from anything that I find worthwhile. So that I'll find things to do that THEY consider worthwhile. Oh the joys. Being an only child sucks. It really fucking sucks. 3 good things about the day: I got to sleep in It was cold My friend burned me an amazing CD Damnit, I feel like a failure right now. Badly. And that feeling really really sucks.

Leave it to me to fuck this up. Why do I have issues doing things most people can do in their sleep? I feel incompetent. I hate being controlled. I hate how I'm living my life. I said there would be pictures. I lied. I'm too tired.