Hi my loves. How are you? I've been better, I'm not winnig if your wondering. I'll have to be deprived of some of the most loved things to win, but I can do. I know I can. Just give me one month. Bad things lead to worse things, maybe they could also lead to hope and prosperity. Just know you are always by myside. Good night. Il's `Tori

Hi again. If you do read my journal entry's please let me know. I want to see who cares. campcupcaketroup645@yahoo.com (copy and paste, copy and paste)

It has been a while. How are you all? I'm ok. I havnt really been doing good to help defeat my battles. I need to finish what i started even if it seems way over my head. It's hard but i need to try. Nothing really has happened over the couple of weeks i haven't posted. Oh, my parents got divorced, but i don't really care. Why are people fake? Why can't they just be real. Real for once? I mean its when you really think you know someone but then, they turn their back on you and that's when you find out they are not who they seem. And you think: things will just blow over, but they never do. Now what? Why are you doing this? With love.

Diary of a broken song Its times like these where i simply cannot go on you say please dont go, I love you with all my soul Let me serenade you one sweet song, It wont be long You say to me, You are the sun in the skies, the light in my eyes But to me you are just full of lies. you say you'll get help real soon But you are simply too late and I refuse to wait. You made me feel safe, That gave me faith that you were serene and not so mean you didnt have to tell me where you went, I could smell it on your breath. I could see when you came at me there was rage in your eyes, Fire in the skies I will not forget what it felt like the time you used my face for a punching bag. It was like you were playing tag and i was always it And this game, i could never quit The record begins to break and the song starts to skip I need to be free. That is why I must leave Release me from your torturous trap, drop me from your strapping grasp I need to be free, I need to be me.

Hi. Are you okay? Im doing good. yeah. Do i let you down? Myself? You never let me down. I love you. Well, today was good. Tomorrow is our last day of school. its only a half day. im so happy. Then i can start my battle against my insecuties, don't worry i wont regret it. Thanks for being by my side. Dont ever think you are nothing because you are everything to me. I love you farah.

Always love who you are. Be proud of where you came from and what you want to become. I'm proud of you. You are my hero, always remember that. I love you and you need to believe in yourself, i believe in you, even during the times when you need it most and you think no one else does. The world spins all around me. I want it to stop. Why won't it stop? WHY?! Did i do something wrong? Make it stop, please! I'm begging you. Make it stop. Now. Oh, god, why wont it stop? I love you. Good night, my love.

I'm sad for everyone who has a parent that walked out on their family. I think that is horrible. My hope and sympothy goes out to you. I hope that you can forgive them. Forgivness is key, but if you can't that's okay, just sort out your feelings. Deal with it how ever you can, just know that I'm here for you no matter what. I cant wait until summer begins, I can finally go into battle aganst my insecurities, maybe even demolish them. That would be awesome. I need help, though. Faith. I love you farah. Great words are kept in my head, I wish you were on. I wish we could catch up. But i love you and I'm always there for you. I need you.

How are you? Its hard to think that while we are all cozy in our homes, people are out there dying. They are dying from war, famine and starvation because someone is to selfish to care what they think. I dont want to be selfish. I want to help people not leave them... I will always be by your side, just dont let go. Look for me, i wont leave you, i'll be there, I promise. I need you like you need me. Just look for me. If you cant find me, call for me. Ill answer. I love you. The thought of somone not wanting to live makes me cringe. I need you. Just because you are going through a bad time does not mean you need to give up. It'll end, I promise. I'll Stay with you. We will challenge it. You and me. Together. We'll make it run, scare it. If you want to get out alive, run for your life. I need you. Dont leave me, please...

Hi. Its been kind of a long time since i added a new entry. I am currently listening to The Grim Goodbye - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. I honestly love this song. You should listen to it. Think what you want, but i do. I have not been on because i got grounded off the computer for a week because i put my principle's head on Hitlers body and he found it...... Anyway, Love is all you need. If no one loves you, i will love you, so therefor you are loved no matter what, ok? If anyone reads my blogs please let my know in some way, please and thank you. I have been having some pretty weird dreams. I woke up crying this morning. In my first dream a couple of days ago, i dreamt that my mom got shot and she was killed. My dad and I (i have no idea where my siblings were) moved into a different house, It want that great and we didn't even go to her funeral. Then my second one which was last night, i went back to my school, but it was different this time. a bigger auditorium (way bigger) and there was a choir concert going on. The velvet curtain all big hiding the performers from the outside world....anywho, i was behind the curtain but then i found this girl i know named crystel and her friend Ellie. They were by this like hole with steps covered in construction paper. I climbed up there, trying not to make the curtain fall on the performers. Then i was in my house and i started sobbing saying how much i missed my mom. Then i woke up. pretty weird. Kind of makes me sad. i need help, just help me. You cant let me down like this, you need to help me, not leave me here do disappear into a nothingness. Pick me up and save me, because you'll be the one. the one who saves me. maybe. Don't let me down. ^when i say stuff like that, that stuff just comes to my head, its really nothing. I love you, you know that. Now go off and face your fears.

Why do people cheat? Greed? I dont know. Just dont put anyone through that crap. Not fun. How would i know? i ask myself. I dont know, i answer back. The days go by so fast. Live life to the fullest, dont ever give up. Im there for you , no matter what, okay? ily. Are you at peace with yourself? I will be soon, i hope. Just need to banish my insecurities. Dont keep them locked up like prisoners in a dark cell, in my head, and hoping they will just die. I cant do that. I need to get them defeated and im desperatly trying to. I just need to try harder i think...... "when it comes to the point, i may cry out as loudly as you did. Or did you not cry? You will tell me" ^ that quote from "Over a thousand hills i walk with you" goes something like that. Keep safe and your well being. Pride is okay sometimes, but dont overdo it. Someone is watching over you, keeping you safe. ily i love you Farah. Thanks for being a great friend even though i have never met you in person, only through messages. Great words. good night, sweet dears.