So, you know that stupid feeling when you think somethings waiting for you? Well, yeah, I thought my boyfriend was coming over for my birthday, [Yay me,] but still, he "forgot". Although. I don't mind, it just bugged me. I know I'm harsh, but forgetting means your coming to a sad realization that your begining to not care. Anyway. Yeah. I know I'm so freggin' retarded to actually type this on a journal thing, but whateverrr. So. Tomorrows Earth Day. Wonderful. I mean, seriously. But it's kind of gay. I mean, barely anyone [except for some way envormental people,] will actually speak or act out. I'll do the honor of spending the day outside with my friends, but hey, not everyones going to do things differently because of a day. I mean, think of everywhere else. Iran, Iraq, are they going to stop because of Earth Day? I dont think so. And after that rant, hm. I'm trying to think of something else to talk about to myself. :\ Ah, Virginia Tech, perhaps? I wasn't totally suprised about this act. I mean, they made a freakin' big deal about it when we have way more important things going on. Other than one Asian crazy boy that shot random gun shots at himself and...well, "random" places. Look at, like I said before, Iraq. Do bombs count? I mean, ooh, twelve or whatever gun shots? Ohmygod, like, doesn't the whole country, with people dying everyday mean anything? Seriously... But don't get me wrong. I would be scared and/or terrified if someone shot around at our school. But he was crazy. --One thing that really would scare me, a school down the road from Virginia Tech, a boy wrote a note saying he was going to let a bomb off at his school, because he wanted to feel the pleasure of killing so many others, and most importantly himself. THAT scares me. My favorite songs right now...Hm. I'll have to say Ruler of Everything by Tally Hall, Newport Living, Moan, Finger Twist & Split, and Risque by Cute Is What We Aim For [I'm quite fond of this group; CIWWAF.], Shake Tramp and Say anything by Marianas Trench, and tiny bit of Ok Go, and Lily Allen. Awesome Lyrics: Where are we? What the hell is going on? The dust has only, just begun to form crop circles in the carpet. Sinking feeling. Spin me 'round again, and rub my eyes, this can't be happening. When busy streets a mess with people, would stop to hold their heads heavy. Hide and seek. Trains and, sewing machines. All those years. They, were here first. Only marks appear on walls. Where pleasure moments hung before, the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity. Of this, Still life. Hide and seek. Trains and sewing machines. (Oh you won't catch me around here) Blood and tears. They were here first. [Favorite part, OC finale!] Mm, what'cha say? That you only meant well, well, of course you did. Mm, what'cha say? Mm, That it's all for the best? Of course it is. That it's just what we need, you decided this. What'cha say? What did you say? Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth. Mid-sweet talk newspaper word cut outs. Speak no feeling, no, I don't believe you. You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit. [I loovvee this song.