And so, I guess that’s what I get for believing that there will ever be an us. I got shut out of your life, her life, even my own life. I lost all contact with reality, and when I finally fell back to earth, I crash-landed, in a horrible scene. Tears, screams, blood shed, all caused by some stupid games you thought would be funny to play on my heart. And like the fool that I am, I played along, not realizing what your intentions really were. I was told, warned, hints thrown to me from left and right, but I didn’t want to believe any of it, your eyes, your smile, YOU wouldn’t let me. All the things you told me, the way you made me feel, the way you made me smile constantly... none of that would allow me to see the truth. So I fell, hoping you would catch me... yet I am still falling, close to hitting the ground... and you wont even look at me... and your still walking away.

I am not really "emo" for any who think that. There was jsut something that happened in my life and I found that writting was the best way to make me feel better and express my feelings.

Still walking in the shadow Of both of your mistake The daemons taunt me Haunt me, laughing in my face A light I can never reach Suddenly goes out All hope is lost for me I know without a doubt My soul is getting heavy I’m ready to give up The darkness has taken over My beating heart is done I wake up from this horrid dream Wishing you were there Tears streaming down my face So just out of despair I grab the shiny razor blade Drag it down my wrist Slowly slipping out of reality All I can see is this red mist I hear the angels crying But they are getting far away I feel the hot flames of hell Where forever I shall stay

Make a wish On the shooting star About your love To be where you are You pray it comes true Cuz it will save your life So you worry all day And stay up all night Then one day You get a call on the phone His mom is crying Cuz he never got home With this sudden shock The tears start rolling down your face It’s all your fault You should take his place You curse the stars and moon And that stupid wish Then write a letter And seal it with a kiss You can’t feel any more pain It’s all gone away Laying in this dark red puddle At the end of your day