Fascinating. Some of the grammar makes me cringe but it would seem disrespectful to fix it all. Tedious too. (Does the edit button work now? It used to be broken - haha.) Hello songmeanings journals, how are you? It's interesting looking at my old self, now understanding so many things. And how much hasn't changed! I wonder what drew me back. I've been looking for structure. That, and I have work to put off. I wonder if I should take up a journal again, though. There are things I need to work through.. and things that I've ignored or put off for too long. I haven't written in such a long time, thinking of it. In my Composition class we did a writing exercise, something akin to stream of consciousness? It was wonderful. I hadn't had that kind of time with my self, any reflection or release, in.. I can't even guess how long. You know, I used to go by the handle Phoenix. It's ironic. I've gone through many cycles, sometimes I swear I'm amnesiac over the old ones. Does this just happen to everyone? We all grow. I've probably been slacking a little. This much hasn't changed: my own standards are always out of reach, intending to force myself to improve, usually just frustrating myself. It can't go on. So I was looking for some structure, to fit in all the things I need to reach those heights naturally. Ah, what am I doing. So much work due in the morning. Another time, perhaps.