Wow, crazy. I found a really old blog I used to maintain and was thoroughly surprised by my writing there. In a good way. Except for how bad it makes anything I've written in months look. It's like I've been unconscious for the last year. I'm so sorry to anyone who puts up with me. Hah..

I think I'm making progress, though very slowly, in fighting this apathetic nature.

There's something thrilling about navigating my home in complete darkness. Like walking in a void. Or in space with no starlight. It's almost dreamlike. I really wish I would have such a dream, to just walk at leisure and enjoy the stillness. Dreams are another story entirely though. I need to look for some Eckhart Tolle books. I heard about him ages ago in citizen22's journal but never got around to reading any of his material.