[Sixth Entry.]To get this stopped heart beating again. Oh man, would that be wonderful if it were true. *crosses fingers* A recap of the last few months. At the end of the school year, I somehow found myself asking Carina out. [May 5th] Uneventful remainder of the school year, and come summer.. nothing particularly exciting for the first few months either. Just relaxed, stayed up late, slept in as much as I could with Mom getting me up so early even when it had barely started. Found a few new animes [FLCL, Eureka 7, AirGear, Innocent Venus]. Created ~thecountdown and restarted on deviantART. Right, so. I think I suffered from a weird phase of apathy nearly the whole summer. I can't stand it. With the school year starting again, I feel like I'm falling out of it, but ugh. I feel disconnected most of the time, then occasionally very sensitive and insightful, or clear. Most troubling about that is many times I'm not sure about my relationship with Carina.. I distinctly remember being so hooked, but.. ..^_^ I can't help but wonder if it was thinking of her that made me feel so warm or a fever from my sickness the last three days. Hehe. Well. I think I should be doing more for her. And it seems like ever since we were coupled things have been shaded. Like I, at least, try to censor what I say only to seem optimistic. I can look at Freen and Orin, and easily see that they have occasional arguments or bumps, besides the flirting (hah!), and I wonder if that's something we should be doing. Not to suggest I would incite a disagreement, I'm assuming that if we were more open things would just happen sometimes.. Yet again, Freen and Orin are a few years older, that is very obvious. It feels more natural to me for this to be a more blissful period. I still wish we were more open. I think that may be enough for now.. As to the custom, I'm writing while putting off a load of homework on the eve of a test.