Fuck Will! he is not worth it that fucking womanizing bitch who needs to grow up...seriously.... however Chris....HE LIKES ME! YES! I knew it!!!! So yeah he is my rock and its great...we talk about everything. We can fight, be honest and never hurt each others feelings so yeah....I guess the movies were right when they said..."Love is never having to say you are sorry." Corny I know but yeah he likes me...and I like him! and thats it.....I am so happy OH!!!! did i meantion he has great timing? Like tonight I was being harassed by a friend whom I will not meantion....and he suddenly comes to my rescue when I say out loud "where is Chris when i need him?" and 5 minutes later, he calls...::sigh:: oh and how he told me he liked me was the best part ever! "Its obvious I like you I just don't show it becuase I am a brick wall.....like when you cried I wanted to go to florida to kick Will's ass and then go to queens and say to Louie what the fuck are you thinking/doing?......if I could I would try to date you" I adore him and now I am done rambling... ::Sigh:: ~Lyss :) :) :) :)

I cannot lie to myself any longer.....I am in love with Will. He is the first person I think of when I wake up and when I go to bed. He is just in my mind all the time. And I hate it! I admitted to him that I hate when he calls be baby cuz I like it too much....Now thats his new pet name for me. Plus he loves that I call him baby...he thinks its hot. God what am I doing?!!?!? I shouldn't be in love with him! I can't be in love with him. But in my heart of hearts I know I love him. Sadly he will never love me back. And I know this.........

"you love me like a friend?" "do you love me like a boyfriend?....you dont have to be with the person to love them like a boyfriend" "you are pretty" "i love you too babe" "we are very special friends" "i can tell you anything and you dont care" "i trust you" "technically i can replace you, but i don't want too" "whats up babe?" All these things were said to me and everytime he says one of them my heart skips....i dont want to fall for Will but he makes it so difficult for me....how can i fall for someone i don't know in front of my face....i need my best friend now! ~Lyss

I told him I want someone else besides my boyfriend and I said it was someone else. He told me to move on.....but before that he told me I should make him want me. Will why can't you see I want you so bad? I dont want the other guy cuz he doesn't get me like you do..... :( Guys are such idiots....and now I'm done. ~Lyss :(

OK.................... I told you all about Will right? Yes I have....okay.....I want him Is that bad when you are in love with the greatest guy ever(for me that would be Louie) and want the utter "bad boy" per say (for me that would be Will)? Why yes I think thats bad....but you know what I can talk to Will about everything and anything. I can't do that with Louie....I mean I can't even talk about sex with Louie...He is my boyfriend.....its like he is too shy to even bring it up. Okay thats not a real problem but the main one is that I want Will....I mean I want all of him...his mixed messages he gives me, the late night calls, the fact I can tell him EVERYTHING, the way we argue and he says "lets not fight babe", and especially how he makes me feel....oh and of course he is hot too....but we won't go there. But I can't do that to Louie...I love him.....(this would be the part where Will would say "you don't love him after all the shit he's put you through"). Okay what Louie put me through is fixed but I'll give you a bit of what went down.....He basically told me in so many words that he still loves his ex...CASE IN POINT: "She got rid of the dog I gave her for Christmas....it was so much more than the $900 i spent on it....I thought of it as our baby." :( yeah it stung and guess who helped me through it....yup thats right.....Will..."How is it that I am the one comforting you and he isn't?" He makes HUGE point. Anyways.....why do I want him? I mean like when I met him I sorta kinda wanted him....but nothing like this...I mean he is all I think about lately....IT SHOULDN'T BE THAT WAY! ugh....maybe i should sleep on it... Sleep is good.....zzzzzzzzzz ~Lyss

Okay where should I start? Maybe with the fact I love the fact I argue with him and he gets under my skin in the worst way. But I like every minute of it. Oh...I forgot to mention who he is....he is Chris...no not the one from Decemeber....a different one. Anyways I love to argue with him and his voice....God its so hot! Yeah I am a dork...but yeah.... But I am here to talk about my feelings. Feeling 1. I can only feel with Louie, I dont think I can truely love him forever. Feeling 2. I can talk to Chris and argue with him and it never changes a thing between us. Feeling 3. I am confused but I should really let this pass by right? Right..... ugh oh well its good to vent right?? I don't know... oh and Feeling 4. I wish my boyfriend would talk rather than stay silent :( and thats all....read this with caution...a little late for a warning huh? haha :-P ~Lyss :)