In a foreign room, where I spent so many years. I write once agian, till paper soaked with tears. I fled this solitude for some time, But i wasn't strong enough to go it alone in my mind. Love gained, then lost. It all started in September Frost. Now looking at it from above. I never would have fell in love. I go tto have someone to blame, besides myself. I'd rather blame you then anyone else. You caught me like a spider does a fly. Things might have been better if I could've got by. You rubed the wound with the salt. All my pain seems to be your fault. Then, I wasn't worth it all. I don't want to hear,"I'm sorry", don't even call. So this seems to be our last call. Six months in, afraid to end it all. Why'd love have to happen to me? The whole time I knew it wasn't supposed to be. -B.Warrick

I left a huge part of my life behind today, well most of it some is still to be done. It was so hard leave a place and things i was addicted to and leaveing behind someone i may not be in love with, but there is no doubt in my mind that i care about them and love them alot. I ate a quarter of fugus last night and thought about this for a long time. Its past due for a change i had taken my life in the wrong direction and it was time to change it. I just hope im strong enough.