well yesterday was good, i feel like im getting really close with peter, i dunno hes such a sweetie pie and neil, hes so nice to everyone, i iwsh i could be like them i dunno i just dont liek myself naymore, and im not so sure of anyhing anymore, i just feel wring and bad and i dont know why mathew makes that all go away school finishes in 13 days *sighs* i should take my camera and take picturs but i dont like asking poeple can i take your picture ;_; im going to miss them i wont see them all for like 2 months and even if i do, alot of epople are moving out of this shithole, i envy them. i hate this place i upset my friend yesterday, i didnt even mean to >.> im so insensitive cant wait to go to agnes waters, and gold coast and go shopping and get new connies and clothes, there is no shops here *sighs* urgh im really sore i need accupuncture my lovely accupuncture

so well disco was awesome, theyd played some really good music

~Dear heart how did you get so perfect ?`~ So tonight is the disco, and tomorrow is when i perform my play, in front of everyone, with them staring at my hideous body and face Fuck that idea scares me more than the fear of death i hate people looking at me or giving me compliments. anyways urgh mathew is so .....moody like he was talking to me fine and then hes like "Bronte shut the fuck up, no one cares" Maybe i care too much Mark asked me today if i stil like tim and i remarked that tim was a fucking fag, an mark laughed and asked if id only realised that now. i dunno that made me smile :) Urgh so today this realy mean popular girl found out that i had given people oral. and wnet and told everyone, like wtf no one needs to know about my sexual life. It pisses me off caus now all the boys open there mouths when i walk past i hate her so much so the disco. I shall take many pickatures of my friends :D with mathew ive decided that i just want something i can never have haha the time thing for when i post my journels is wrong, its not that time in australia xD anyways ive said all i need to say, i shall write about the disco later xD

Well today got sent to detention for having a go at a girl. She had been sending text mesages to my friend saying "Your such a fucking whore " "Its your fault im cuting myself" "The day you leave will be the happiest day of my life" "If i were you i couldnt get to sleep because the image of me burning in hell with cuts on my wrist would be burned into my mind" now, this is all beacuse this girl, sam is stalking this boy named robert who is 4 years older than her, and robert sat with ashleigh, the girl who sam texted. And because ashleigh moved aside to talk to me in homeroom I mean seriously girl grow up, your in grade 9 *sighs* she's gone what she thinks is emo, just so robert will notice her she sent him text messages saying that shed had sex with 12 guys this year and had the nerve to call ashleigh a whore! so when sam walked past and muttered "dirty whore" under her breath to ashleigh, i just lost it and said "You make up lies about how active you are in your sexual life to impress an older guy, while your still a virgin yet you have the right to call ashleigh a whore, your kidding youself you motherufcker" so i get snet to detention, but her face was worth it saw mathew at the skatpark, god hes so amazing, he can ride a bike and skateboard and scooter and still do these amazing tricks, and no im not stalking him, my squad swimming training is next to teh skatepark, im soo glad he didnt see me though caus jees the sight of my stomach and thighs might make him throw up im so sick of the whole tim thing, i seriously dont understand why i get so hung up over boys. and now im like chasing after mathew >.> when will i learn. me and him wanna get the same tatoo in the same spot, as i found out today xD haha were so bizarre. I dunno hes weird. like i let him go in front of me in the locker line and he wont go infront of me. yet expects me to go infront of him. >.> he had to perform his play today lol hes such a loser, and he has this kinda, twinge to his voice, its adorable anyways back to sam she says that she stabs her wrists yet there are no scars she proclaims to all that she is emo but dress's like a slut, and unfortunately picks her clothes that someome half her size would look better in. she says shes tried to kill herself numerous times but has never been admitted to hospital, and also say's that shes bulimic but cant make herself throw up >.> she pisses me off, shes lost all her friends but hangs out with the grade 7's >.> haha i love the song comming undone by KORN, its like, my life in a song xD anyways i shall now take my leave bye ^_^

Haha its been awhile well that gorgeous guy i liekd? first he dumped that girl then he found out that i liekd him and i found out he had sex with my friend and she misscarried his baby ;_; anyways im like *cry* now im just numb and ive really just stopped caring the other guy is really distracting so im like *clings* the other day i was walking home and i hear like a person yell my name and i turn around and its that guy *okay his names matt* and hes riding full bore down this hill on a skateboard and hes like 'BRRROOOONNNTTTEEE CATCH MEEEE!" and he likes leaps of his skateboard and lands on me knocking me to the ground and then his skateboard went on to the road and a car ran over it xD and anyways hum, i seriously think i talk about love too much >.> like im so pathetic, im such a stereotypical teenage girl >.< but anyways caus matts like really skinny and kinda, like an inch shorter than me and hes two lockers above me, so i was like crouched down and i felt something on my shoulders and then im like "Someones on my shoulders" -__-'' then i saw a shoe and im like -matts sitting on my shoulders....- and then hes like "IM RIDING BRONTE !" and im like "stfu mathew!" but anyways he has really bad mood swings and hell be like "i hate you bronte, yoru so ugly" but then he gets up me for never standing up for myself >.> hes a bizarre cookie lol or an Odd ball as my friend might say yeah sooo apparently the druuggie girl at school has moved onto injecting heroin before school in between her toes, sad what a waste of life so yeah im just i dunno hateing my dad atm he told me im selfish and my brother hit me in the face so i punched him in the back and dad yelled at me saying that im a bitch and that im not allowed to hit the boys sighs anyway i dyed my hair and i still dont feel better i have to perform a play *sigh* i hate it and havent memorized it ;_; anyways i shall stop whining bye!