Hm sitting here after my schools outdoor ed day thinking about life in general why am i so ugly ? Why are theyre so many remarkably pretty girls out there ? Anyways, So i like a guy and he likes my (perfect) best friend shes like barbie come to life >.< Im not. yeah sure the guy flirts with me, he flirts with everyone, and i have no proof he likes her but she likes him last year and they got on well and he flirts so much more with her, maybe im just jealous, i blame my green eyes xD On another note, got a nice massage today from a friend xD hes good with his hands, its nice to unwind The day to day stress really wears me down then i end up being a bitch to everyone, it sucks and everyone thinks im quiet but really im loud, im just um..whats a word...Intimidated easily i wish i was more confident ;_; I wish getting called names didnt affect me, like a i got called an emo cunt by a popular guy and im just like *evil glare of doom* Lol nah im not emo, im just pale, a vegetarian and like unpopular music, so i guess that makes me emo >.> wtf people out here are so judgemental it sucks Lol im such a whiner, i wish i wasnt, You know what ? I was listening to the radio the other day and i heard the most true-to-life song every, the lyrics go "Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me I'm a hazard to myself Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy Its bad when you annoy yourself So irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else " I reckon that sums up my life atm Hum The hot lies are an awesome band am going through there songs like its going outta style xD I hate aussie accents ive decided we sound kinda stupid xD Urgh i get told im too american caus i call it a "Juicebox" instead of a "Popper" anyways im out xD Cya peoples

well im sick and sitting here listening to japanese music while eating noodles in a cup Life is kinda sucky Had the worst day on friday A girl told me that if she every got as fat as me shed kill herself Like dude i already know im fat, i dont need you to tell me I kinda wish people werent so superficial but then again im superficial so theres no point in me saying that I wish i could do something for the world besides die.. xD On another note, ive almost beaten kingdom hearts .< I also hate getting called emo, i mean its not my fault im pale I have brown hair goddamnit >< urrrggggh Hm im done ranting ..

Urgh So i moved to mount isa and have been at schol for a week One disadvantage of being really tall is that all the cute guys are shorter than you ;_; i think science needs to make a cosemtic srgery where they make you shorter Oh well, the grass is always greener This new school is feral, you can swear at/to teachers the teachers critisize teh curiculum and then start swearing to the class about it chew gumm in class, you can have as many earrings & facial piecrings you want, theres even a few dudes who have a beard Not yet sold on the facial hair XP oh and your streches can be up to...24 i think ? But the people here, no sense of good music they all listen to country *air retches* or rap/hip hop/urban/rnb *retches again* And then there are the "wannabe-rebels" who think that there are people in mcr called gerald and freddie >.> Anyways on free dress day i like wore a skinny hoodie black cropped pants and a red/pink tank top and got callled emo Also, on the same day a rumour got spread that i cut my wrists, how does teh rumour spreader know this, and i quote "Look at her clothes lyk she must cut her wrists" *rolls eyes* Hm but i cant complain, there are some really nice people here, and a few hot guys, unfortunately every acceptable guy is shorter than me WHY MUST I BE TALLL *emo moment* Urgh its so annoying I realised the other day that im a bitch, like not just mean but like a reallysuper nasty bitch Eg"When i see a girl who is fatter or ugklier than me ill be like *BOOYAH*" and if i see a really pretty or skinny girl ill be liek *URGH DIIIIE *FLYING TACKLE OF DEATH** But seriously thinking about myself, im a really spoiled brat Like i have a house food clean water a toilet and shower my parents are still together and love me & my brothers But i still always want something or complain about something Im so stupid, like even sometimes ill dumb myself down to seem cool or so people wont percieve me as a nerd, i wont wear my reading glasses so people wont think im geeky And i wont wear the outfits i want to so people wont think im weird It just eats me up in side, and i regret things and i care how i look, im not tough im not smart and im not pretty im just mediocre at everything and like theres all these people who have done things for theyre future and here i am wasting my time, whatll happen once i leave school ? I have so many plans for the future but i need money and i dont even know what i wanna be and even if i do get set on something theres so may obsticles in the way, and by complaining about the obsticles im perceieved as lazy which is stupid because i was complaining up there about complaining urgh its all just too much to think about >.< Im out Bronte