I'm going to see Jasmine in five days. We finally got the tickets last night. I'm so excited and nervous. Just five more days until some extreme Jasmine time. We're going to take pictures like this; Me and Karina are talking all friendly, so I guess things are okay, unless she's being completely fake. I don't really know. But I dislike her a lot less, even though she still continues to do those things that bother the hell out of me. She has these pictures of her and Michael, idk. Whatever, it's high school. Some time this weekend Daddy is going to take me and Rachel on post to go to the carnival. I'm excited. I wanted to go on the fourth, but Daddy didn't want to go because it's always really hard to get out because of all the people who go, so he said he'd take is this weekend. I guess it's over on the eighth or ninth, I don't know. Saturday I'm probably going to the movies with Michael, we're going to see License to Wed. It looks really funny. It's really hot in our house. And I have a really bad headache, I don't know why. I think I'm pretty close to at least fifth place with the Matt Dallas name. I just want to see my name up there on the list. I just want to be close. Fifth place would be unbelievable. I guess the contest has been going on since October of last year. If I had started in October, I'd definitely have won by now. At least I'm somewhat close. Song On My MySpace: Mat Kearney - Undeniable

I realized like ten minutes ago that this guy Mees deleted me off of MySpace. I feel pretty bad. Like, I didn't do anything wrong. It just sucks that he deleted me. I think it's for the same reason that Josh got mad at me the other day, posting a ton of Matt Dallas bulletins. I wont readd him... well, at least not until I pass him at least once when school starts, or maybe if I see him outside or something. I'm only going to add him if I have reason to be looking for his MySpace in the first place. Blahhh, that sucks. He's added me every time he got a new MySpace, like he was the one who requested, and he deleted me. LAME. I haven't talked to Michael in two days. I don't know. I'm kind of expecting a break up soon. I know that we're only hanging this weekend if he makes the initial effort. I have plans for Friday, fifth quarter, and I'm not concerned about making more plans. If he wants to hang, he can bring it up. I go back to my dad's on Tuesday, and then Wednesday is the fourth of July and I really hope we're going to the carnival. I wanted to go with Sara but she got grounded for whatever reason, which really sucks. I wanted to go with Michael too, but again, I'm not going out of my way for any plans, and I made the original offer about a week ago. I hope my next boy is like the one before Michael. That's seriously what I'm hoping for. I can't wait for school to start back up, I'm sick of sitting all day on the computer. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love being on the computer and being able to talk to friends whenever I want and all that great stuff, but I'm just getting really bored of it. And I know I'm going to be even more bored come Tuesday because I have a two hour time limit on the computer. I just want school to start up again, for a bunch of different reasons. Song On MySpace Profile: Rooney - When Did Your Heart Go Missing?

I was playing Sims earlier. I was going to make me and Matt Dallas, Jasmine and Channing Tatum, Lovin and Gaspard Ulliel, Nina and Justin Chatwin, Sara and Ewan McGregor, and Rachel and Zac Efron. I was in the middle of making me and Matt, like I was finished making us, about to save the family and everything, and then this thing pops up and says something about low virtual memory. Then, two seconds later, a thing pops up saying that Sims has crashed and will now close. I was so pissed. Especially considering I was playing Sims to escape from my problems with Michael and Karina. It's just bothering me more and more, just all kinds of things. Like how they still say "I love you" and they hang out and she offers to pay for him. Just how she's putting it out there so much that she still wants to be with him. It sucks. And it's stupid, because part of me doesn't give a shit one way or the other whether or not me and Michael last any longer, and another part of me is just torn up about the entire situation. I hate this. I hate how I don't know what I want. I have this picture of Matt Dallas in a polaroid, but you can't see his face, only his chin. It's still a cute picture, but I wanted to find the other polaroids. And I found them, so those made me pretty happy. I have five things on my MySpace dedicated to Matt Dallas, seriously. My profile lifts my spirits. Song On MySpace Profile: Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry

No one is on MySpace right now and I don't know what to do with myself. I was entertaining myself by looking for pictures of Matt Dallas and then posting them in bulletins, but then this boy Josh got annoyed with me, so I stopped. And I'm pretty sure I've listened to/watched/read every single Matt Dallas interview available on the web, there's nothing more to look up. The anticipation leading up to seeing Jasmine in a couple weeks is unbelieveable. I keep commenting her pictures of people at the beach, or people doing regular best friend kind of things. I haven't seen her in two years of our three year friendship, and I'm getting to see her soon. But I'm really worried about the fact that we don't have my tickets yet, and I'm not completely sure I have a passport either. I'm extremely concerned. And I only have $10.00... I know my dad is paying for most of the trip, but I also know I have to pay some amount and I don't think it's only $10.00 of it. I really hope I'm still able to go. Karina is really driving me insane. Part of me thinks she's okay and isn't going to try anything with Michael, and another part of me just hates her with every fiber of my being because I feel like she's going to try something. I don't know. I'm just ready for her to leave. My sister Rachel is being extremely obnoxious and keeps trying to sneak in here, and then she gets her feelings hurt when I turn around and catch her. I have very good hearing and I can hear her stepping on the ground, I can hear her breathing, I can hear all the little things that show she's in here, so I turn around. And also, she's not very good at crouching so I see her. She's terrible at being silent, it's insane. I'm probably going to start using this little journal to post pictures and stuff of Matt Dallas, just because my MySpace kids seem to be getting sick of it. It seems as though not everyone is as in love with him as I am. I really hope I'm able to meet him... but I know it's unlikely. And I know I could spread the word and get support by posting stuff about it on different websites, but I can't give out personal information like my full name and the city and state I live in, and all that information is needed for anyone to be able to help me. It's insane, and extremely annoying. I wonder if this site works with html and stuff like that. Well, I guess we're about to find out. Song On MySpace Profile: Jack's Mannequin - Rescued