ok i needed to vent about this. i met this girl, Ashely, my senior year of high school, we met at a bon fire. Everyone knew her, but she had a slut label, which was wrong, but anyway, i was the only one she talked to, i knew of her, and i knew the of the label, but i didnt care, cause all i saw was this naturally beautiful woman, she had brunette hair down to her shoulders, an amazing body, a great laugh with all this passion, and just one of the nicest girls anyone got meet. the next day, she was transfored over to my english class, and she sat next to me. We had this teacher that was a little crazy, so i would make fun of her, and Ashely would laugh, and we would continue this for 10 months. I saw her that night at the football game, and we would joke about everything, and while she was talking she swallowed her gum, and that became a joke between us for a lone time. But during this thunderstorm, that ended up canceling the football game, after knowing her for only one day, she gave me a hug, but something was different about this hug. Over the course of the next few months she would text me on where she was at lunch, and we would meet up. One day I was texting her while she was at lunch with her asshole of a boyfriend, John, well the next day he ditched her at lunch, and i was there to take her, in more ways then one. Well after the lunch interaction, she ended up breaking up with John, the next night she made a joke about me making her pregnant, this contiues now today. But during this time, i was getting out of my own crappy relationship, so i never told Ashely how much i was in love with her, and then she started dating this guy Drew. Me and her were still close, but there was this jealousy factor that i never told her. Well lets fast forward acouple months, and summer. I started my college career, and i started to talk to her again, she never forgot our inside jokes, she still remembers everything that happened between us. And she finally opened up to me, i was now closer to her than any girl i've encountered in my life, and any guy she has encountered. During this time of opening up, she says to me, "i was in love you". And know i was stuck with an altimatum, tell her and take a chance on ruining our new great friendship and the possiblity of ruining her and Drew's relationship, where he makes her happy, or keep my mouth shot. Well, I told her, it was after a basketball game in the cold, "Ashley, im going to tell you something i should have told you a year ago. I'm in love you", it seemes quick but at the time, it wasnt near has fast. And she gave me an answer that i didnt expect "ok, thank you for telling me". Right now i was in a state of confussion. She would continue "We are so close now that we shouldnt hide anything from each other", Im going to tell you right now, this girl is one in a million. But, she is still with Drew, and they've been together for a year. And after knowing her for a year and a half, im still madly in love with her, she is still the greatest force of nature that I have encountered. It sucks to know that, i missed my chance. But I realized today, that i did miss my chance, and i cant go back in time, if i could God knows i would. But, i love her, i will always love her until my dying day. She's one of those girls that you never EVER want to lose contact with. She's the only girl that i have fallen in love with. Im going to leave everyone with something to remember. If you're in love with someone, and honestly in love with them, tell them. love Chris K. if you are interested in having me as a friend on myspace, heres my link, myspace.com/chris_the_heartbreak_kid