have you ever had something go on in your life that you feel if you told your bff.. they might not talk to you? its the worst feeling in the world. thinking that someone soo close to you could judge you so harshly, and not talk to you again. even if what was going on made you the happiest you've been in a long time. i'm in that situation. i haven't told her, and i'm so afraid to. because i'm afraid of losing her. it has to do with who i'm dating, and how much older he is than me. its weird, because the people i work with don't have a problem with it at all. they actually kind of encouraged it. but yet, i'm so afraid to tell her.. because i know how she feels about me and older men. and i'm talking.. guys 26 years old and stuff. well.. this guy is waaaay older than that. he's old enough to be my dad. he is as old as my dad. i know i know. craaaazy! but he makes me oh so happy. i dont know what to do. and i don't really have anyone to talk to about it.. i just had to get it out somehow. and i have so many other problems in my life. but who doesnt right? i'm not complaining. i have a pretty good life. i'm not as happy as i want to be.. but i'm working on it.