On the weekend i get to go get drunk with my friends. But another one of my friends who I kind of like said he was coming too. I hope I don't say anything I'll regret. The only good thing is that I'm a clumsy drunk and he's always there to catch me when I fall. I'm kind of hoping we end up making out though ;) I'm such a creep.

i feel like crying and i don't know why

My best friend has really been pissing me off lately. She's been my best friend for 12 years now and she's getting really irritating. She's obsessed with her job which is more like a cult and its all she talks about. She say the lamest sounding things and I have to stop myself from telling her she sounds like an idiot. Which brings me to my next point she uses words she doesn't understand and asks me what they mean after she's used them incorrectly. She's not fun to be around anymore. She's never laughed so hard that she started to cry, like she hardly laughs other than an annoying nervous laugh. She's obsessed with excersise and body image and it's just like ugh SHUT UP! And she always chews, no not chews, pops her gum. It's always the same nasty flavour that i can smell and because of her, gum disgusts me in every way possible. wow it feels really good to get that all out.

i had one of the best days today. i went to the mall with my friends then we got drunk and went to mcdonalds. i was convined that they sold boxes of 40 chicken nuggets and asked for them and got laughed at. i knew the guy so it was ok. we were laughing like idiots but having the best time. i should do this more often.

I think my friends forgot that I am among the living. Last night they were all like "ya piercings tomorrow lets go!" and today I haven't heard from anyone. Not cool. Bored out of my fucking skull. I need to go out so I don't go fucking crazy.

if anyone is reading this, i have a huge favor to ask. i just heard Saosin's live aol session and they sung Time After Time by Cyndi Lauper. i really liked it but can't find it on limewire so if anyone actually reads this and has/knows where to download the song email me at vicioza@yahoo.com thx.

I felt too greasy so i had a shower, I don't feel like such a dirtbag anymore

I'm just gonna put it out there, I haven't showered in like a week. It's not that i don't want to, there's no point because it's not like I'm going anywhere. It's kind of depressing because in my own little mind it feels like no one want to hang out with me. I think I have social anxiety. I wait for people to ask me if iI want to go out, I never ask, I'm too afraid of them saying no. It sounds stupid but it's how I've been latley. Pathetic much?

i'm giving myself 3 minutes to write about whatever random shit comes to mind starting..........NOW! so im just hanging out eating gnocci drinking arizona cuz you know how i do. bored as hell gonna be for the next week but i dont care ill catch up on sleep. i got this idea from shaants fbr journalya i'm a loser what are you gonna do about it? nothing. because youu can't. why? because you don't fucking know who i am. i'm just words, no face. end time *sorry for typos and such*

so, today wasn't too bad considering it's a monday. +no math homework + i found out i'm going to germany + my friend dyed his hair and looks amazing - it's cold/windy as fuck out - aforementioned friend doesn't think of me as more than a friend. god, he's gorgeous, i think i really like him. he is very confusing though. somedays he'll ignore me and others he's all over me, i don't get it. anyways... i really like my art class. my table has really random/funny conversations. a guy at my table is a year younger than me but he's kinda cute and he's funny, i have a suspicion he might be gay though.