I'm bleeding inside, can't you tell. I'm hurting deep inside, should I yell? I cry everyday, wincing from the pain. It takes control of my life, so black and yet so vain. The scars are so agonizing. They bleed with every move I make. They're immoral, hurting, with every breath I take. Terror and fear strike me at once. Too much pain to resist. I finally give in and start to cry. Just one more thing to say, before I leave, before I die. I love you all and please forgive me. I will miss you with every beat of my heart. We'll meet again when I'm finally free. Free from pain and scars and so much more. God give me new life, a new purpose. Let me know you so I don't live in tears anymore. i wrote this one when i didn't know where else to turn. i figured maybe if i asked for gods help then maybe id see the light or something. but hey what's a girl supposed to do. im still living in the dark here and no one can help me but myself...i'm suffocating!!!! :/

There once was a time when i could feel everything. When I understood what people were going through. I could cry with them. And laugh with them. I understood them, And they understood me. Now, time is DEAD! Everyone has been wiped off the face of the earth. Everyone except me! The only thing here are these barbaric creatures that WILL NOT leave me alone. They want me to join them. To be one of them. They calim that they're immortal. That they will NEVER parish. That they don't have a time when they will die. But then....how would they, when time itself doesn't exist anymore? They, whatever they are, know something. I think that they killed everyone off. That they stopped time. These creatures keep bothering me. They follow me wherever I go. When I try to hide from them, They somehow find me. They come into my thoughts And invade my dreams. I'm starting to behave like them, And it scares me. I'm starting to forget. About me and about everyone that was here by my side. Everyone that I once took for granted. Everyone that understood and loved me. While i only understood....no...pretended to understand them, and I never repayed them their love. Maybe......Maybe I do belong with these creatures. NO!!!!!!.......They've somehow......somehow.........they've somehow....... I can't think! Everything's gone! I AM one of them. I AM immortal like them. I will NEVER parish! I AM one of these barbaric creatures.! :/

Hey everyone!! How's life out there for ya? Life has treated me fairly in the past but now... wow... it's not so good!! Maybe it's just cuz i'm in my teenage years so it feels as if EVERYTHING is going wrong. Like everything got turned upside down. Music....Of course this is a musical site. So how can we not talk about music. Music is what pretty much gets me through my days... every day. I swear that if i didn't have it then i would NOT be here today. I would absolutely love to be in a band someday. Not just to be famous. But i love the music, i would love to be on a stage hearing people shout back my songs to me. Or just jumping up and down clapping and just enjoying that moment and time. Anywayz.. back to life. It pretty much sux azz right now. I've gone to counseling once in my 15 years of living. and i would not be suprised if i end up going back. I got caught in the eighth grade "cutting", if you will. It started out with me, of all the things we "cutters" can cut for, is being bored. And then of course i started to doing with being angry and frusterated. and pretty much all the time. if i didn't have anything to do. Don't know how many of you out there have this problem, but yeah it is a problem. A BIG PROBLEM. but enuf with my depressing life story. Keep on living everybody, and rocking out to that awesome kick azz music that's out there. If you feel like you don't belong in the world or that there is no purpose for you here. Just hold on, hold on to what you got, cuz i do believe that there is hope out there for people like us. Be glad (though I'm not all the time), that you wake up everyday that you do, that just means that you made it through one more hellish day, and hopefully that next one will be better!!!! Just because you hit rock bottom. Doesn't mean that you can't swim back to the surface.