What a night tonight was

drunk, alone, but still elated at the end of the night

am I destined to be alone?

i laugh to myself

I've drifted on and on through this senseless reality

trying so very hard to understand the rules set upon me by this world

that I so casually inhabit 

cherishing my fate but cursing my inadequacy to live up to the honour of the privileges set upon me

im happy that I am a part of this world if only for this moment

where I write in this same stupid journal I've written in since I was fucking 13

i haven't changed all that much

if anything you could say I've regressed 

but I'm doing alright and the world is an okay place to live after all

so I hope you're doing alright too