i'm sitting against a tree in our campus courtyard with a laptop, trying to seem as though i'm a part of the typical college scenery. in reality, my fingers are covered in stale resin as i try to clean out my pipe to take a stealth toke. finally satisfied with the suction, i bend down behind my backpack to light the bowl. i breathe in as the weed soars through me. i appreciate the sleepy golden sun and the fall chill even more than before. 

it's a typical college drug addiction but i'm happy for the most part. i have a lot of friends i haven't seen much of lately, but i'll be seeing them this weekend and maybe that'll jumpstart our connections. but who knows, maybe i'm destined to be lonely even when i'm not alone.

i watched meet the robinsons on netflix and it inspired me to let go of the past and keep moving forward. i guess you can laugh at me for being so influenced by cartoons, but it might mean that i'm still emotionally a child. i'm cursed with the brutal honesty and the equivalent lack of emotional skin. but i'm an adult now and i can say i'm okay with the way my life turned out. it wasn't what i expected, but days like today are enough for me.