kissing someone you don't know is like reading a book with obscure references that you don't understand. it could be a great book, but it's boring because you don't understand it. it's the same with fucking. it's not that i'm looking for everlasting commitment. i just want to know things beyond a strange physical sensation. i don't want to waste my time touching people that i can't relate to. i want to be dazzled. i can swallow my feelings as long as i'm dazzled. if i'm not dazzled, the feelings come back and choke me up. i'd spit them out but it would be such a waste- all of that potential given up. i'm not really sure what i'm talking about.