the cardiovascular system is slowly picking back up again. the pump was thought to be out of service for good- however, in a startling display of courage, the system regained its function. it's not the smoothest of operations, but it's so much better than apologizing for the "out of order" sign that choked me up constantly. there is light- no, don't argue- it's there. find it within yourself, and you will never feel lost. continue loving- even when you feel it shall surely destroy you. a person may have tamed you, but you can always become wild again. don't wait in vain for their attention. either you can move forward willingly, or you can be dragged along painfully. i am in the process of removing the barricade between the time before you, and the time after you. the sand will soon flow evenly, and my heart will no longer be a field of memory mines. open your eyes. smile. fightoffyourdemons.