Well, I guess history has repeated itself. It's exactly the same as last time. Nothings changed. I thought it would be different this time. And the worst part is i still think that. I still come up with these crazy ideas that maybe he'll just go crazy and come he'll sweep me off my feet. I had a dream weeks ago. that i kissed him and it was and amazinggg kiss. and when i opened my eyes, it wasn't him. & i figured it out, hes not the guy i want him to be. and he wont ever be. im so done. god i wish i could do that. i know you dont mean to be mean to me cause when you want to you can make me feel like we belong we belong