I want to be done with him. I wake up everyday telling myself that i'm done. And I almost make it through the day and then I get to sixth hour and just being around him is enough to do it. And he can be a dick but one word from him and im right back to where I started. Why can't I be done with him? There's gotta be a reason. I just wish I could figure it out. He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

K so to catch up, B messaged me not long after that last entry telling me he wasn't sure what he wanted but he didnt want to write anything off like he kind of did. & then he made a big effort to try to hang out with me the rest of the weekend and then he barely talked to me the whole time we were at a party. I don't get it. But I can't complain. I asked for this. I was at a party last sat and there was this guy there (another K. Yeah, I know, bad news right?) and he was totally "digging me" I guess and he totally wanted to hook up with me. Well I didnt let that happen. But I had a dream last night, one of those reallyyyy real ones. That B called me and left me a message saying how pissed he was that I like K and that i hooked up with him and all this nottt true stuff & how I was such a bitch and i'm always fucking with him & I can never make up my mind. Oh my god I freaked when I woke up this morning. I checked my voice mail. Ugh, I want a boy. ohhh well. My birthday's tuesday!!! happy 16 to meeee