wow, why do i seem to miss her so much when i just saw her yesterday, lol, man, these 10 months have jsut been so amazing, no other way to really explain it, just so amazing yesterday she cooked me dinner, lol, it was really good, she worked hard in there for me, lol, i was really thankful for it, it was good, and she did it with great intension, it was cool, and our band is doing great, we are getting along very well, i really like how it is going, i love working with her, she is so great also i am waiting to see if she can go on the houseboat with me, any amount of time will be cool, all week would be quite the experiance, but even if just for a day i will be happy, any time with her is amazing i have fall so far for her, i love her so much, it is insane, at times she is all i can think about , and it is rare to find time i dont think about her, lol, she has just taken over my life and i am so glad, i want to be with her forever, lover her, keep her safe, be with her listen to her, it would just be and amazing life with her no matter what happened, man, when i kiss her i can just melt into her, it feels so good to kiss her, especially if i havnt seen her for a few days and that fist kiss feels so good, she is so amazingly beautiful, i could just stand back and watch her for a long time,lol, all of her is beautiful , she is so sexy, her body can leave me speachless, and her skin feels so good on my hands, and she is so much more then just a super hot chick, lol, i mean i could just stay quiet and listen to her all day, man i have really fallen hard for her, lol

i hella miss swan right now, i havnt talked to her since i swan her on friday and i am going crazy, lol

hey,i wrote a good entry on the noose, you should read it

every moment me and swan spend together just seems to be amazing, i enjoy every moment with her so much, even if we arent doing anything i enjoy it. jsut being in her presence is good enough for me, man i would love a time i could be with her all the time, i would enjoy life in general so much more, i could just be myself , her be herself, and we could do anythign, i would not care what it is, as long as we are together, i would travel the world with her, do anything, and with her by my side it would be great. she just makes me feel so much better, i could not imagine life without her, ever since that day our love was lit aflame, i have had a feeling i cant explain, adn i feel it is a fire that could burn forever

man, well i hope i can see swan at least once( most likely once, lol) but yeah i should get a chance this week befor i go on vacation man i wish i could see her all the time, that would be so great, i still cant wait for a chance to sleep with her, or if we didnt sleep, lol, at least lay with her for a extended time with no distraction, that would be great, she really is so special to me, i really still find it crazy at times to know what i have with her the future holds so much, i wonder what it holds for us and everyone i know, it is so crazy, some of my friends are leaving on there own difficult journey, others are finding themselves and growing up, and developing into themselves, while others search still to find themselves, or there own way to finally grow comfterble with themselves so they can actually be themselves for once, and so many journeys people are taking, in left in the middle of it all is me and swan, who are growing both in our own individual ways and together as well, i have watched swan really grow over this time we have been together, some may be new growth or just me seeing more of her true self. i try to help her in her journey of growth however i can, she is really becoming a woman, and there are still many steps for her to go in that journey or life and understanding it all and growing up, but she is progressing at a good pace as for myself, well i dont know, hard to reflect on yourself, lol, but i am probably not doing so bad, lol, i just hope i make the right choices n the future, adn for some good wisdom, for wisdom is probably one the the most important things to have, next to love that is, which i am happy to say i already have

hey , well perhaps me and swan can start summer entries, lol, since i know i am bored enough to and i know she probably is too, lol well summer has been cool, i have not gotten all the private guitar time i hoped for but i still get plenty, and me and swan have gotten to just hang out and not worry about school or anything,i love that, it has been cool, i guess you can say our relationship has stepped up a level since summer has started, well i feel even closer to her, every day i get to be with her just seems to fly by and that is because of how good of a time we have together. she is like the best person for me to hang out with, i can talk to her about anything, we can play music, be able to be physical, or just play around, joke, or the best part , just sit and say nothing but just smile really and enjoy her presence, and it really shows how well we do together, also, physically we have gone up a level as well, adn had a close encounter with sex, but it just didnt work out, we probably were not as ready as we thought, but now i feel more comfterble and have a better idea of what to do, so maby next opritunity will go better, and who knows when that will be, i mean it could just appear at any time or not be for another long time(hope not but maby) but that all doesnt matter, because when the right time comes it will happen. damn is she so beautiful, adn sexy , i couldnt ask for better, phyically she just blows my mind, adn in every other way too, lol and moving on our band is starting out great, really good progress, i know swan might think she is holding it back, but not really, she is getting better at breaking down that wall and i cant wait till she sings at her full potential all the time, i love her voice so much, i know she doesnt think much of it and that makes her want to not use it as much in front of me but i really love the way she sound her voice calms me, adn she will break the block, it just takes some push well i wrote a lot, i better get going, man i miss swan a lot right now, i cant wait to talk to her and see her again