there's a fresh start for every new journey and although i'd say a journal is not exactly an entirely brand new experience.. i'd like to believe that this is a new start, in someplace different anyway. utilitarianism.. with the two levels of intuitive and critical, how are we supposed to be responsible for our actions? i don't understand why some philosopher can go on and say that its moral to choose your son over a surgeon who could potentially save 100 lives while the future of your son is uncertain.. (this comes from an example of an airplane crash where you can save only one person, your son or a surgeon) i know that by feelings and emotions i would want to save the son.. but then wouldn't this be an act of criminality to the other people who could be saved by the surgeon, and now die because there is no one to help? i struggle with my faith in god everyday. i believe he's real.. but do i have to show it all the time? isn't it enough for me to accept it and keep it in my heart, while continuing to be a normal person? people don't go to hell for being a pot head, i hope. my fingers are terribly tender and tearing with blisters from playing the guitar all too much. is there such a thing - playing guitar too much.. hah.. i don't think my best friend likes that i'm getting rather good. we're a bit competitve and i think she liked having the edge.. but i'm stepping it up. its not even about the competition or who's better though. its just passion. its my life! cliche', i know.. that would be me..