I got to go to Ozzfest and it was a fucking BLAST. I got to go in the pit again! and there were about 40,000 people there, and people were lighting cups and shit on fire and like. dancing and moshing around the fires and I didn't even fucking try to mosh once cuz I could've been snapped in half. I got so close to the front it wasn't even funny but I got there too late and so no one would budge but damn. if I got there earlier I would've been right up front. but like. all of the bands in second stage were good. I missed the first band that played which I think was Circus Diablo, but i got there in the pit for The Showdown and the guitarist was freaking HOT. if i do say so myself. and they did a Pantera and Metallica tribute and we all bananas. Yeah, I held up in the second stage pit for a good 5 bands and then the security guards were handing out water and people were taking a drink and passing it around and no one passed it to me and I felt like i was gonna throw up and I knew if that happened i'd probably get tunnel vision and pass out, so i got out, found my dad, found some shade behind this one gate and hung out there listening to the music until mainstage came on because i figured i'd be good to go in that pit when it came on. mainstage was CRAZY though. we had to sit out for lordi though, because they sucked so bad. I think we missed Behemoth, and Static X kicked ASS. people were getting into fights and someone dropped mace bombs and we were all coughing and our eyes were burning and shit and everyone cleared over to the other side until it was okay again. Then people were lighting fire works and I'm pretty sure i got contact high because there was this dude that smoked an entire doobie by himself and was blowing it right in my face the entire time. and Lamb of God played one long ass set. but they kicked everyone else's ass. Then Ozzy came on, and i don't think there was a person there who didn't throw their horns up. lol it was the best though, he did Bark at the Moon first, then I'm not Going Away, and then he did War Pigs. oh my god. i didn't think he would do a Sabbath song. it was my greatest first ozzfest ever. the line up wasn't bad for pretty much free at all. I smell like pot, sweat, mace, alcohol, and every inch of me hurts. but i couldn't be happier.

YAY. I'm gettin on the plane to CO TOMORROW. My sister's gonna pick me up. I'm really excited and tired. And jealous of Brandon because he got pot out of the kid down the street. I never could do that. He always said he didn't have any when I asked him. Bastard. Oh well. maybe some other time. until then, I'm gonna be a faggot retard until I get on the plane. soooo peace niggas, = Merie Jane

Yeah, I've been stuck in a city that's two hours away from where I live because we still have the house from when we used to live there. Well, we're fixing it up to sell, but in the meantime we still have it and everything. And my grandparents made a spontaneous trip to Nevada at the beginning of this week, and my Mom suddenly decided that since she works in the same city our old house is in, and she doesn't want to make that two hour drive, that i'll be staying at the house instead of staying at home. I slept most of this week off. It sucked pretty hard. There wasn't a phone so I couldn't really talk to anyone, and thank god there was a t.v. or else I would've gone insane. And I don't watch that much television either, so this has to be the most I've watched television within the last two years or so. and I drew ALOT. and made tons of doodles and crap. oh and before that, last weekend, I think, when Brandon came over and we hung out we went over to an abandoned construction site and messed around and when I came back home I got in trouble and grounded for not letting anyone know where I was going before I left..Yanno...Typical teenager crap. So I should be un-grounded this weekend. Oh, also I think last Tuesday I went to the new Dairy Queen, the lines were HUGE. both in the Drive through and inside. Like, around the corner and almost into the street. It took like, two hours for us to get to the window to order. and the ice cream sucked, definitely wasn't worth the horrendous wait. Anyways, s'gettin' late and I need to start packing my stuff to get ready to go to CO, i'm leaving after this week and I'm SUPER excited. and i'm probably not gonna be home during the weekday so I don't have that long to mess around. anywaaaays, Peace, = Merie Jane

Blah. Brandon came home today...I think. I saw their car pull into their garage, but it might've been Theresa..Hope it was them..and that they just have jet lag and are sleeping. Don't you just love irrational female thought trails?..I sure do. Peace, = Merie Jane

My mom can be the biggest bitch. I swear. i understand where i got it from, now. but she's so difficult to live with sometimes. I'm not ungrateful for her, in any way. I appreciate every little thing she does for me, but GOD. sometimes i just need a second away from her. Or at least enough time to be able to regroup and realize just how much I can get on her nerves. Which, I totally don't blame her sometimes. I'm not the greatest, jolliest, most responsible teenager ever, but i try to make up for it all. She's also the most closed minded person i've ever met. but hey, things are okay now, god i love her, but god she's SO hard to live with sometimes. sorry for the bitchy whining/mini rant type thing. BRANDON IS COMING HOME. Really soon. in a couple hours, tops. we're so gonna hang out. and today was boring, i got a poster of dogs playing poker when I was dragged along to Wal*mart after I got ditched and I just hung around the entrance, scaring people. as usual. until they came back out and we left. and I just hung around until my mom got off work and I got a ride home with her. yeah, we got into a HUGE fight this morning, but we made up on the way back home. and uh, that's pretty much it. i'm tired. waiting for Brandon to come home. Wut a fagg. Peace, = Merie Jane

blah. last couple days have been shit. I got a Wolfmother cd. i love it. uh. there's something up with my house, there's no hot water..and I guess they're fixing it now. but i still had to take a cold shower and everything. So that sucked. oh and yesterday was Zeb and my Grandpa's birthdays. it was easier to celebrate it with my grandpa because Zeb's way the hell in CO with my sister. But I tried calling him and everything and he didn't pick up. So he was probably A) shooting pool, B) Sleeping, or C) at work. blah. i just left a message. hopefully his trial won't be before we get there, 'cause he got caught with a DUI, but before you shake your head, hear the story, first. He was caught, passed out at the wheel, in a parking lot with the keys in the ignition. not driving. but he's still gotta go through the legal system as if he were. I honestly think it's bullshit in my opinion, but that's just me. I know, i've probably said this a million times before, but I really miss Jake. I wanna go see him but I can't and it's annoying. gah, i miss my Basketball, yes i do.

Sooo. I'm just countin' down the days 'till I leave for Colorado. Thank god the last couple days have been short and everything. But on a different note, Jake crashed on his bike. I went over and checked on him yesterday and i was worried and everything, but he's okay. His face was a little scraped, but other than that he wasn't too banged up.

"If it’s a white hot soul they want It’s a black heart they’ll get. " Smashing Pumpkins - Tarantula Hum. this journal thingy is pretty cool. I should totally start using it more. Sooo. School was out for me awhile ago. I've been really bored because my friends are out of state right now and I really miss them. :c but it's all good, i've been doing my best to entertain myself and everything. Like, i've been drawing way more and hanging out with my friend Jake. Funny story behind him and me, we were probably gonna go out but..it's weird because somehow i saw more value to him as a friend rather than a partner. And thank god i was right, and we didn't get together and have something go wrong causing us to break up and totally ruin this great friendship we have now. His parents, and his little sister and brother like me, so that's a plus. And i've brought their dog that runs away home on an occasion. Sooo, in about a week and a half from now i'm gonna be going to Colorado to see my sister, and it's gonna be so much fun. I love going back there and I really wish i could stay. It's always really hard to leave every time i go. Oh, and on a totally completely different note, my nose really really really hurts. it sucks getting punched in the nose when you have a septum piercing. =( i hope nothing's damaged or anything.. oh, and i also LOVE Mandarin Orange Propels...=) they're great. and blah... learn to love my ramblings..or go away. :3 tata = Merie Jane

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