This is such a screwed up song. It's all... produced and... just.. icky, but that's what I'm listening to. Well, it's over now, and now it's Drive, which I like. But yeah, Yesterday, I left out some minor deals about yesterday. We talked at Meadow Farm for a while, and just walked around, and I swear, he's gotta be the sweetest guy ever, and I love love love love his eyes, I could like... stare into them forever. I don't relaly know why, but... agh!!! And, I dunno, I just feel happy around him, I think I'm starting to get spoiled, because when I'm not around him, I htink about him... and I need a life. But he went to the fair on Sunday, and he won a game (throwing darts at a balloon, fyi) and he picked me out a stuffed animal. He picked Pooh, and he was like... it's as close to Disney as I could get, and I lvoe love it. I think it's so sweet that he tried to pick Disney for me. *blush* He also invited me to this party with him after work on Saturday, but I'm almost positive my parents won't let me go, because I won't know anyone there but him, and they don't even know him well or anything. But... mom didn't say no right away, so that's good, even though it gives me false hope. Do you think it's too soon for me to move on from Scott? I mean, he broke up with me less than a week ago and I'm already Crazy about another guy, but I mean, I liked Clinton even when we were going out, and I was thinking about breaking up with Scott for him, but Scott broke up with me, so it wasn't an issue. I still like Scott... but I'm absolutely enamored over Clinton. It's really annoying how Scott just like.. won't talk to me. Like.. we completely avoid each other at lunch and stuff like that.. He just refuses to talk to me. Morgan and Bailey just found out today that he broke up with me! I hope they don't bug him to death, I just assumed they knew. But yeah, it still makes me sad, because I've never been broken up with before, and let's say it's not a great feeling. I mean.. it's like you're not worthy of this person, which is the way I feel when I start like... going places with someone, because... if I really like them, then I don't think I deserve them, but.... I was sort of beginning to be more comfortable and confident in my shoes, and then all my progress was destroyed... I dunno... I think being broken up with sucks. I now really understand about Brittany. Her situation was bad when her and Mike broke up. She'd liked him for a really long time, and she got a little taste of it over Spring Trip, and a few days when we came back, but then... he broke it off, for reasons she didn't understand. She didn't really and truly get over it till just recently, and (well, being a sap is totally and completely part of it!) she's still touchy about the subject. Like at lunch today, Joe was "prophesizing" that Mike and Brittany would like... get married and all this stuff, and she got really flustered, which is the absolute worst thing to do! She should just brush it off... but... she didn't... oh well, I told her that after lunch, and she was like... yeah.. I should have, but it's not easy... but yeah. We're supposed to teach tomorrow, and we don't have a lesson plan at all... and I need to cram for my English test, and read some stories I never read... I miss Regina Spektor, but my parents hate the CD, so I'm not supposed to play it but so much, especially since I'm trying to suck up so I can go to that party with Clinton.

Wow.... a ridiculous amount of stuff has happened since I last wrote in this... so I'll give ya the important highlights. 3-2 = the CARDINALS RECORD! I'm ridiculously excited, like, youhave NO freaking idea. Uh... remember Scott? He and I are no more. He broke up with me on the 3rd of October ( a week from tomorrow) and yeah, I was kind of upset, but I'm getting over it... and Yeah.... I don't know if I ever mentioned Clinton in here... but he's this guy at work, that liked me, but I obviously had a boyfriend, but since I don't-- he's fair game, and I really really really like him.. So this weekend was massively fantastical. Friday ngiht I worked, and I like work, even though I didn't have many friends who were working, so I mostly chilled with Ellen. Saturday-- I went to Boydton with teh fam for stew weekend. the stew was delicious beyond all belief, and it's yum. Yeah, so that was fun. And then I listened to the UVA-MTSU game... and we BARELY won! Sunday- Josh, Jacob, and Jase came over for the usual. THen I had SUnday School, which was fine. I got to see some people (i.e. Daniel) who I haven't seen in a while. Monday- Beautiful, but really hot outside. I talked to Clinton on the phone for an hour or so... and talked to Jacob for an hour or so... watched some TV, and then went to the Park with Clinton. it was fun. he's adorable. THen... we both had to get ready for work, so... I went back home, got ready, and saw him at work. He's... !!! Yeah... so that's the main highlights-- I'll try to keep this up more, but it probablyu won't happen!