i want to see wes sooo bad! its funny how i never had any feelings for him what so ever, but now that i have him, i incandesently need his prescence. someone i could care less about before is now the center of my thoughts...

@ school. very bored. bells about to ring. going 2 a perty tomorrow. heavens getting her bellybutton pierced. eww, nasty. one of the lurker trolls foun dout bout me being bi. moms gonna find out. wah.. *tear falls oh well...

Like i said, saturday, my girlfriends boyfriend (confusing much?) was @ the skating rink, and he was like trying to hold my hand and stuff. And he did end up grabbing my hand between tickling me and grabbing my bobo... anyway, my gf found out, and whoever told her said i was all over jeffrey and that i was trying 2 get him 2 cheat on her just like i did with her last boyfriend houston... (?) i dont even know what she's talking about a)i love her, not jeffrey b) i never ever out ANYTHING towards houston b) i would never get jeffrey 2 cheat on her i just feel really bad that she doesnt bebeive me...

i feel horrible. my gf had to babyit, and her bf was @ the skating place when i was there and he kept like ticlikg me, and then when my bf kaleigh and me had 2 ride home with him, he grabbed my hand... AND FOR SOME EARTHLY REASON, I NEVER LET GO... SACRE BLOODY HELL... shit... merde...

supposed to be working on the computer, doin a project that is due 2 morrow, but im not done.. oh well... crap... failing algebra, test 2day, didnt study (CODY WAS HERE BITCHZ) supposed 2 have my tutor (my smart head cousin) call me, but he's a shmuck and he never called me. so pretty much, i dont know what im doing and im gonna fail. wah.. oh well. if anybody reads this knows how to find a biological parent, call me @ 918*7114. or if u read this and ur bored call me. well then... if ur a pedophile, dont call me... i love herbert the pedophile...

Nothing doing. supposed to be working, but i actually finished my work. Im on meds that make me not be a bloe to sleep, so iv gotten NO sleep in the past 3 days. sacre bloody bleu. damn. i gotta puke. *time passses* that was nice and refreshing! :-( but our nurse is a dyke (seriously thats her name, June Dyke!!!) and she wont ever let me go home. waah. fuck bye.

listening to fiona no wait regina spektor. i WAS listeneing to fiiona, but got tired of her masculinity. i think regina spektor just kicks butt. not only because SHE CAN SING but because of her originality. theres no one like her. now a days, if u have money, a song producer can make you millions, no matter how badly bloody horrible you sing. oh well. not my fault.

gawd im tired. *yawns* can't focus. too much too think about. listening to rumanway love by ludacris and Political World by bob dylan. kinda funny how different they are. oh well. when youre as pathetic as i am, most things ARE funny. harumph... bleh, whiskey. i need wine. i hate whiskey. gawd im tired. sacre bloody bleu. bloody hell.

i think school should die. i think i would probably burn my school if there wasnt the whoile going 2 jail side effect. ya. (yawns) i gots songs stuck in my head. sally's song from nightmare b4 xmas and Fidelity by regina spektor. i hat life, bcuz if you werent alive, you cant hurt