I put my cards face up on the table bluffing always proved to be my downfall So here it goes all in You’re little amazing star is falling And telling all First it was the wild child after came the smooth talker Next was the pretty boy Or was it the giant then I never can remember which part came first But he wasn’t the last The military man came back asking for my hand But tenth grade came and went I don’t want to fit those squares In my circular holes They never quite fit As well as pencil dick (oops) The smell of bic ink Finds its way to my nose And “Window in the Skies” Has come on twice But there is way too much salt For me to care And I’m sure that all the pressure in the face Feels so much better than the piercing in the heart Buddha knows, it fixes itself faster So apparently I was right But I want to be wrong I thought that any web would do But the only spider that fit was you Now here comes skinny two So much different than skinny one Skinny two seemed to want the same things I hear you on Halloween God knows, skinny one wouldn’t hold my hand forever Dear skinny one, I spoke my mind, without trying to separate from you Yes, your hair isn’t yellow And you don’t watch trees decompose But you do have that hint of protective resentment That made me resent this Dear skinny two, Skinny one is jealous of you Afraid to lose the flower he so tried to use But the flower just wants skinny one to admit it And the flower wants skinny two to stay with her as she grows And protect her from the weeds

And I’m so sorry that I always put you through this But an hour later I wonder why I’m the one apologizing When I’m the one who’s always crying Well it’s way past four on a once Thursday night But we’ve been through this before And always only with you I’m not sure what makes you so addicting You’re no good for me You’re no good to me All I wanted, you won’t give me I think it’s in you but you can’t find it I know you can do it, because I’m not asking much I just want you to let me love you but you won’t You care enough to tell me that you are no good for me But it’s okay for me to hang around You’re a walking contradiction and you make me question myself You want me to be around you but not to love you But you can’t be near me without loving me It’s the double-standard of our generation I’m not the first to feel this way but I hope that I’m the last I want this love to be worth it I want to think that it wasn’t all a waste The love that you give isn’t what I want Is that what you want from me? The love that I want is purer than what you know I want you to be capable of feeling Call me greedy call me what you want But I still don’t think I’m asking much When we parted ways and came back again I felt like I just rode a roller coaster And I just got back in line again People who you hated (guess what, they hated you more) Tried to protect me from you They recited Jack Saying you were a low down, good for nothing fool And it was such a crying shame I was crazy to want to see you But I’m just holding on And I’ll always just be holding on I’m just hoping you’ll change Hoping you’ll see me for all that I am I know I’ve been hoping too long But I’ll always be hoping for you For your sake.