This is my first journal entry, and at the moment I need to vent, so bear with me.... Ok.....so, background info: I'm a sophomore at QHSSYC which is a high school in New York City. My name is Lexy and I'm a chick. I have a short temper and...I guess that's all you need to know about me So...there's this guy, he's a senior, and his name is Ron. For almost 6 months or so, Ron has had a crush on me. When he told me about it, I told him it wasn't the time for me to have a boyfriend because me and guys never work out too well. He seemed to understand, but he still kept his feelings for me. Fast forward to this year, when the new freshman came into our school. This girl named Melesa (or whatever) began to develop feelings for Ron. Ron kinda liked her, but I guess nothing special. When I heard that Melesa asked Ron out I guess you can say I became a little jealous. I'm a naturally jealous person, so you can't blame me. Well, I decided to do the "right" thing and I told Ron to go out with Melesa if he thought that nothing was ever going to happen with me. I feel good that I told him to move on with his life, and not wait for me to end up with him, but I hate that he's dating that retard of a girl. I don't no...I'm just being selfish I guess. What I need is to make out with a guy no strings attached. Or at least to go out with someone that doesn't like me, so that it'll be a challenge to get. Other than that, I don't no what to do, and I feel horrible, but I don't even know why.