I am sitting here reading lyrics to songs from my past that still make me cry, when I should be taking my test. Why in the important moments of my life do I always feel like I can't help but remind myself how screwed up my life is, and how I seem to keep making it worse. How to stop emotions from controlling me? reading: Pearl Jam's "Don't Call Me Daughter", "Rearview Mirror", "Black", "Given to Fly"...

"Bessie Smith" "All Along The Watchtower" Norah Jones songs, esp. the girl in the water Counting Crows, esp. Einstein on the Beach, & some others I'd never heard but first saw & was deeply (too much perhaps) moved by when I read them on here That group that sang in early '09 on SNL about his brother...can't recall. Bro with a drug problem or who at least kept drifting in & out of their lives "Brother of Mine"?