It took me a while. To figure it all out. I hate everything about you. The fact that you act like you care about me. But really you don't. It makes me laugh now that I think about it. It was fun while it lasted. I still remember that night. Hell it will probably happen again. But I'm still gonna hate you. For everything you've done to me. And then turning your back on me. Thanks a lot. My conscience is clear.

Why do you plague my mind like this? I don't want to... But I can't help but think of you day and night. I'm not even supposed to. The worst part is... It hurts. Its not supposed to hurt. I was never meant to fall for you. But I find myself slowly falling faster and harder. I want you so bad. But I can't have you. It's driving me insane. I can't even tell anyone about it. No one was supposed to know. This is my only sanctuary where no one will find out. I wish I could tell you... But that would just ruin everything. Talk to me please. Ease it all away. I just want you.

How can you just go around and screw people without actually caring about them? One night stands maybe. But again and again? I don't get you. I don't want to be a part of your stupid crusades. I used to care. I used to care about you so much. I never did tell you. But you knew. But when I found out you only cared about getting some... Well its over. I don't even want to think about you anymore. I'm glad we never went that far. Then I'd actually learn the meaning of regret. You're such an egotistical jackass. But somehow I feel sad. I hate you with every bone in my body. But I still want to see your smile. I still want to know you. I want to be your friend. But I want to be your friend before anything else. You just never cared that much. It's no wonder you sit around wondering why people keep leaving. Because you don't give anyone else anything. You just take take take. I don't wish you bad luck. But I don't wish you well either. Just leave my heart in peace.