So anyways... I was just talking to Kayli today and I found out alot more about her. It turns out that she is on anti-depression pills. That confused me but she explained it. You would have to meet her! She is just such a happy person! She explained though that she's not when she is alone... I understand her situation completely. So she talked to me about all her problems and it surprised me everything that had gone on with her. I was totally clueless. And it makes me wonder why everyone always tells me everything about themselves. Is it because I'm so open about myself? I mean... I tell people what I beleive I can trust them with. The facts that I had ran away to someone I had met online. I have tried to commit suicide. I've cut alot. Got alot of scars... I mean, I guess it gives people the idea that they can trust me with their problems. Another thing that probably helps is the fact that I'm so quiet. People know for sure that I won't go around telling everyone their life stories. Just my journal... =] Anyways. I'm going to go because my one that is special to me is texting me over and over again and I cannot ignore my beloved! Always, Red. myspace.com/thatcracker

I am called emo so much... It's just completely sad how emo I was once upon a time! Supposedly as everyone says though, I'm doing a lot better lately. The cutting has stopped, BIG accomplishment, no more running away, and now I actually talk and laugh! Everyone needs to start smiling in my opinion. Start looking on the bright side of things. Stop being so negative! Stop being self-conscious! I know I'm working on it! I'm not nearly as self conscious about myself as I once was. I actually think I'm worth something now! I guess I can thank some special people for my accomplishments though... That makes me think too, if you're one of those people... picking on the "emo's"... stop it! Why don't you actually try and make someones life better for a change other than being selfish and only thinking of yourself. We need more people like my friends. People that care. The world is slowly coming to an end in my opinion. Not because of "global warming" or anything political, but just because of the selfishness of people. The greed and hate... and the fact that everyone is spoiled! It's being shown more and more in children as the generations go on. I don't know I'm just rambling about nonsense... If you ever want to talk or message me though, if you're one of those people that needs a friend you can just add me on myspace! www.myspace.com/thatcracker