[sunday 24th may] 5:03pm wow the previous post was so intense i remember, it was such a spontaneous outburst of emotion heh.. well at the time thats what life felt like i guess.. now its alot more toned down, more mellow and free, even though i have so much work to do, and stress is coming with exams and presentations and assignments due within 48hrs, or atleast the last two are.. i can finally say that im getting over the "hill", that period where it starts to feel more n more mutual and u can let go of more n more of that attachment that u create. its funny how ur mood can change so rapidly from day to day, maybe im just too distracted atm too be consumed by it like i normally have been. or maybe it is actually dissolving. i dont know which, but whatever it is im sort of happy for it, so now i can think clearer and focus on other things. its true what they say, time fixes and heals almost everything, you just gotta give it time. maybe now my posts can go back to being 'daily recounts' instead of these 'train of thoughts', or maybe a mixture of the two.. not much happening the past few weeks, i was sick for half of it last week, and the other night i can rem which, i think it was a friday, i spent half the night arnd in the city in the pouring rain helping her find her friend then her missing bus then took a train halfway home. its the little things that count. my weekend has been pretty much work work work, two assignments and a presentation and an exam for later in the week ahead.. fun fun. songofthemoment jason harwell - somewhere the sun "I'm making plans to get back on my feet Don't want to be afraid no more If I can make it right down to the street It's all right"

[wednesday 20th may] 3:20am (approx) but i dont know what it is about her, theres something special there u just cant explain.. and im afraid that ill do something stupid sooner or later if i havent already.. i know i shldnt have come back here, because all it does is really feed it >< it goes up n down to be honest tho, but that was just my weak attempts at trying to resist it, to suppress it, because i know its not good for me.. i cant think clearly anymore these days.. and i dont know why its so hard to let go.. i mean i honestly dont even know her that well enough i think that would register such emotions =/ she is a good friend to me, and i hope i dont do anything to ruin that by putting my feelings first.. but then u would just wonder ur whole life, that u let that something go.. i dont know anymore.. anyways this isnt really meant to be here, i shld really fill in what has happened inbetween the long posts.. but not now, i just know i only came on here to say this, get it out someway or another.. *end impulsive train of thought* heh songofthemoment keri hilson/ne-yo/kanye west - knock you down "sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down just get back up when it knocks you down"

[saturday 9th may] 2:48am wow its been a whole month, time flies.. been so busy lately.. i hope i get some time tmr or this weekend to do a whole monthly update, but atm the weekend is looking pretty busy ,with tow family outings (dinners) and a 21st bday part tmr night...eep and also gotta cram some study for maple and do some project work >< ah life is catching up on me.. its been so busy that even a few priorities have been swapped around, if u know what i mean..altho really i could never take that out of first priority..nothing is that important or special..and i hope nothing ever does.. songofthemoment israel - do it again "cant seem to let you go, cant seem to let you go, baby coz i love you so, do it again do it again" =/