bloody hell hell hell hell hell. rebuilding what some bastard broke down isn't easy or fun, but ultimately worth it, i s'pose. my head hurts alot more lately. stress migraines are worse than any others. portugal the mans new album is saving me from giving up on this reconstructing shit. it's amazing, and highly suggested. i need to breathe deeply and lose myself in five cups of tea and a puff of smoke. life isn't good right now, but i promise myself it will be soon. deargoddeargoddeargoddeargod