Now I have been having troubles all round now, but the worst part is my dreams where i see the girl i still like for days in a row. I want to know what my mind is doing to me. i have been told that it will all get better, but i know it wont. I want to end it all. But if something great happens to me in the next few days my mind might be detered from this. But I want to know what is the great beyond. What is there? Will it make me happy?

HI this is me Here is my situation : During the holiday in the first week i met up with a girl who i liked but i didnt know if she had liked me. Previous to this point i had only met her once and i noticed what a great person she was then. But during this holiday for about two weeks i kept meeting up with her. At one point my friend said we looked like a couply because well we did, constant hugging and holding hands. During those two weeks i felt so happy and good about my life like everything would all work out. But then one day i get told that she doesnt actually like me. I thought why would she be so couply with me if she didnt like me. I asked her about this and she told me that she liked someone else. I felt so unhappy, like i had lost everything. I couldnt blame her though i loved her to much to be horrible to her. So since then i have felt so unhappy. I just want to go back to the beginning of the holiday. I hated it. I will finish this another time but send me a message or an email if you wish