i have vivid memories of my mother and father yelling and screaming at each other, but i never knew why. i always thought, mommy and daddy are supposed to love each other, why are they yelling? i never knew that it was so much more. that the love could so easily turn to anger and abuse and regret and then love again. love is such a vicious cycle. sadly with my parents, the love stopped after a few of those cycles. and it makes me sad. this eminem song is so truthful. love is so delicate and abuse is such a shadow over the love but it is really only that-a shadow. it darkens the love but it doesn't block it. and that's why i think girls stay with abusive guys, because they can still see the love underneath the shadow. i wish it wasn't this way but it is, all over the world. and that's what eminem is talking about in this song, and that's why it hits me so hard. the vicious cycle, the love then the hate then the words, the words you say but don't mean but they still stab into the person you love. and when it comes down to them, you never want them to leave. because you need someone to share your shadow with.

Honestly, this journal is so pointless. I always look back on these things and laugh! But alas, this is life. You should always look back and laugh, no matter what. *sigh* I spilled yogurt on myself today So now it looks like I was jizzed on by the pink monster. Awesome! But at least I'm only going to McDick's for dinner with Matt. ♥ Love of my life! A Shanty Town! This is a good ass song. I love music. It expands so much, but I also love WWW.SNACKSANDSHIT.COM OH GOD AHAHAHAH, allright I grow tired of typing. Goodbye pointless journal, till next time, Shaleesa! :)

Wow I haven't logged onto this damn thing in so long but I go on it all the time to search lyrics,lol. Doesn't make much sense, but wow my old journals tell so much about me. Ahh well, Facebook is where all my life happens. Screw Twitter.:) (L)Music! and Praise Jah.

There's this boy. And I really like him.I can't stop thinking about him,and he makes me feel all tingly inside. And this song basically sums up how I feel about him: I havent got a clue if you're the one But I like you, and ooh I like how you make me feel I wanna do this right Dont wanna waste this night But I'm drowning Drowning in your love Bring me flowers and talk for hours ooh I like you, and ooh I like how you make me feel Kiss my face, your warm embrace ooh I like you, and ooh I like how you make me feel I'm a little scared to hold you close Cause I just might never ever let you go Caught up in your smile, 'Im happy as a child But I'm still drowning, drowning in your love Bring me flowers and talk for hours ooh I like you, and ooh I like how you make me feel Kiss my face, your warm embrace ooh I like you, and ooh I like how you make me feel. :) His name is...Well,I'll leave that a secret. I just hope that he likes me back. I'm ready to be with someone,and I like him. So,yep. I want to dance with him,I want to sing to him,I want to hug him.I want him.Oh mann. >.

Upstairs in the library! Surrounded by Toonyahh,Meg,Katie,and Christine. Second lunch is THEE BESSTTT. =] So yes, I have drama next;time to practice for our ritual presentation. We're doing the quinceaneara. Or...something. I get to dance! But in heels, so that makes my feet hurt. And who knew Ashton was such a good dancer? I unno. Anywaze, Long weekend in just over a day...EXCITED! Four days off,mm,mm,good. Oh and I saw Borat... FXCKING HELLA FUNNY HOLY SHIZA. And Battle Of The Bands tomorrow. EXCITEDD ONCE AGAIN! N2S: DO WORKOUT AND TALK TO JAKEYPOO. Mhm, that is all I can think of to type now, oh and;SPRING IS HEREE!! Yay! And I have't got my Cosmogirl magazine yet;I am sad. THE END. ♥ PS-Spit yo game;talk yo shit;grab yo gat;call yo click;squeeze yo click;hit the right one;pass that weed;i got to light one;all them niggaz;i got to fight one;all them hoes;i got to like one;our situation is a tight one;whachu gon do?fight or run?

If you do read these,notify me somehow. Anywaze,gosh this Winter Break sucks, first of all, the weather is nothing like it's supposed to be. WHERE IS THE F*CKING SNOW. Like really. Ugh,and I haven't done anything fun with my friends. Damn mom,not letting me go anywhere. Man I hate her. Ahhh well. Anywaze,this entry has no real point,so I'm just gonna go now. Comb my hair,listen to some music,all that jazz. PAYCE. (8)Whoa here she comes,watch out boy she'll chew you up!(8) ♥

Who reads these things? Anywaze,I guess I'll just introduce myself. Shaleesa 14 Mixed-half black,half white Canada Drama kid GIRL. Talkative,funny Curvacious Music(L) Soup(L) Fish(EW) Pirate,turtle,and ninja.ALL AT ONCE,how can that be. Well obviously it can be if I exist.BAM. So yeah,welcome to me. ♥