Okay, I'm going to use this little journal thing. It doesn't seem like many people would use this. I would like to say that most of things I write will not be happy. I really feel bad today. I wrote my family a note about my "condition" but haven't given it to them yet. I really need to find a way to make myself feel better, or control my feelings. It really hurts me. I just want to cry right now, but I don't think I have the tears in me. I must go for now. Heather